The World is Ugly (MCR Fanfiction)

5. Dr. Death Defying

Waking up sucks. I wish I just could sleep forever and never wake up. If I could die in my sleep I probably would. It would be like I was just sleeping forever. I know I should be happy because I'm with my brother now and all that jazz but no. I guess depression doesn't go away that fast. It feels like it might be getting better though, which is good I guess.

I accidentally rolled onto my bad arm in the middle of the night so now my arm felt like shit. Other than that it was probably the best sleep I've gotten in a while. I usually sleep for like 5 hours but this seemed like more.

I managed to pull myself up without making my arm hurt anymore than it already does so yay me. I grabbed my sunglasses and put them in my jean pocket and headed for the kitchen.

Ghoul and Neon were already in the kitchen talking. Making breakfast probably.

Ghoul has always been an early riser so the fact he was already up didn't surprise me. Wait what time is it?

I walked over to them and saw they had already eaten and empty cans of food were lying there.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"1:00. You must have been worn out from yesterday." Neon said cleaning up some of the empty cans of food.

1:00?!?! I don't think I have gotten this much sleep since I was 10!

"Oh wow." I said taking a seat at the table.

"Here is some leftovers of your hungry." Ghoul said placing an open can of food in front of me.

"Thanks" I said poking at the food with a fork.

This food taste like crap. It tastes like dog food that expired. I managed to choke it down though. Eating is required if you want to at least survive the day. That's what I plan to do.

Survive the day.

I do feel a little better though. I know it won't last. Every time I think I'm getting better something happens and all my hard work of putting myself back together comes crashing down. Maybe this time it will last...probably not.

"So how's your arm this morning?" Ghoul snaps me out of my thoughts.

It hurts. A lot but I don't want him to worry. He's done enough worrying about me.

"Fine."

"Good. Later we are going to see Dr.D and tell him the good news!" Ghoul said smiling.

I can't see Dr. D! I could get in serious trouble for being a loner killjoy! Worst of all Ghoul probably things that I'm in a group and he wants to meet them! He is going to freak when he finds out. What am I supposed to say?

Adrenaline walks into the kitchen fully dressed.She sees me sitting at the kitchen table and quickly averts her eyes and walks away.

"Adrenaline wait." I said getting up to follow her.

She just started walking quicker and walked out the front door.

"You can't ignore me forever!" I shouted at her.

Adrenaline stopped still not facing me. We were standing outside the hideout. The sun was shining so down on the both of us. The sunlight fell on her hair and made it look like beautiful. She turned around to face me. She looked absolutely stunning out here. Well she always did but today especially.

"Why did you lie to me this whole time? Why didn't you tell me?!" Adrenaline shouted, her voice cracking a little.

Is she crying because of me? I'm not worth it trust me. I want to punch myself in the face for hurting her. How could I do this to her? I am a terrible girlfriend. I don't deserve someone as great as her. She has never lied to me and here I am trying to fix what I did.