"One way or Another." [ Chrollo x Reader x Hisoka ]

"Pretty sure"

The closer we got, the more his sentiments, and his movements, became second nature to me, he ensured his place in my life, and the day he knew it, he made sure that my peaceful and, dearly, awaited life, became more destructive than the one I was escaping. In my head, I remember the event quite clearly.

We'd left his family's manor in order to celebrate another successful job together, as always, we'd decided to go to the bar we'd first worked together in. It was our ritual, but every time, our "friendly" ways, were more and more meaningful. Not just in the special way, in which I was his first friend, rather we started to fall for each other.

-"What should we drink to today? Hm, Illu?"- With my usual drink in hand I asked him, in a playful manor, not wanting to dampen the mood at all.

-"To you. And to your, many, ways to kill a man."- He looked at me with so much warmth, I think I bought that he was a human, just hurt.

-"Such flattery, Am I deserving of the attention of the oldest Zoldyck?"- I was no longer trying to hide my interest. As if that had changed at all.

-"Why, maybe? Are you?"- I was totally caught off-guard, I had a habit of flirting with him, but I wasn't expecting him to reciprocate.

He got closer to me, and I put my drink down, to stand up and with every ounce of willpower I might've had, I held my hand out to him and tried to be brave, look him in the eyes and such. But it was just so embarrassing, I couldn't look at him, it was the first time I was being up front, and I was so very absolutely terrified.

Still, he held my hand in his. We left the bar having drunk too little for the night, and we just went home. He told me he was pretty sure. He was pretty sure, that he wanted to be with me. He was "pretty sure" I was the one for him. And every time I remember, all the rage in the world fills me, because he was my "end".

He convinced me that his "pretty sure" was just because of a lack of experience, but I didn't have experience either, and I still knew that he was what I wanted. I realized moving forward, that he had settled for me, while I had given everything for him. And every time he was made to believe, that I had other options, he was infuriated.