Why won't these feelings go away..?

The Apology

I opened the door and walked in to find Will sitting on his bed. He had been crying. I sat down next to him, we looked at each other for a second then quickly looked away. I wasn't sure how to start but luckily Will managed to start the conversation for me instead.

Will: "What do you want then..?"

Mike: "I just- I came to apologise for the things I said back there, it was really uncalled for and you definitely didn't sabotage the day I was just being a self-pitying idiot."

Will: "What is happening to us mike? We used to be so close but now we barely even talk anymore."

Mike: "We do talk."

Will: "Not like we used to anymore, you barely even called meanwhile El has like a book of letters from you."

Mike: "That's because she's my girlfriend and what do you mean? I tried to call you every day but Joyce has that telemarketing job now so I never could."

Will: "oh. I didn't realise, I just completely forgot about my mom's job I guess."

Mike: "Hey it's okay and besides I'm in California now so we don't have to call anymore we can talk for real now. We should make the most of this time since I'm only here for a week and then I have to go back to Hawkins."

Will: "Oh.. I forgot about that, yeah your right though I've missed you alot. I've missed everyone, California is nice but it's nothing like Hawkins."

I sat there listening to Will and I agree with him I missed him so much but Hawkins just isn't the same without him. We both just sat there staring at eachover in silence.The more I looked at him the more I realised how beautiful he was, his emerald eyes glistening in the sun, the way he dresses. Everything about him was amazing, how soft his lips look. I could feel myself leaning in closer and once I got close enough to his face I kis-

Jonathan: "Hey, dinners ready."

Will: oh yeah, we're coming."

I slowly backed away and got of his bed. I DIDN'T JUST GO TO DO THAT, DID I? Why would I try and kiss my bestfriend. No I didn't I don't know what I was thinking but I don't love Will. I could never love Will. I love El! Right..? I shook my head then went downstairs ready to eat dinner.

Joyce: "Well how was rink-o um what do you call it again?"

El: "Rink-o-mania"

Joyce: "yeah, rink-o-mania was it fun?"

Will: "uhm, yeah it was fun.."

Will lied to Joyce, he hated it but there's no point thinking about how much of a jerk I was to him. After we finished eating we all went upstairs, there were no other spare rooms and El's room was only small so I had to sleep in the same room as Will. I got dressed, brushed my teeth, layed out my sleeping bag and then fell asleep. Well tried to fall asleep I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened earlier, I don't like Will, I can't like Will. What would everyone think I already get bullied enough and if I am... Gay.. Then I'll get bullied way worse not just by people in school but everyone, because it's wrong...

But then again. Why does it feel right?

Word count:570

I actually managed to finish 2 chapters today. WOW! This one was really fun to make since we just got extremely gay and oblivious Mike. I can't wait to make more byler stuff and mileven angst (pretend you didn't just read that mileven part). Well I'll probably post the next part tomorrow. See ya!