Survivor | John Murphy Love Story

Open the damn door!

I couldn't believe Monty, Clarke and Finn were gone. We desperately needed them back. Finn was good in reading tracks, Clarke was a healer and Monty was just a genius. How could Bellamy not want to look after them?

„Bellamy sucks", Raven growled, kicking the dirt. I nodded, agreeing. I knew she was still in love with Finn, even if she tried to deny it at times. Meanwhile, I hated him. He had a girlfriend on the ark and on the ground, he slept with another one. That was really low. I thought he was the fun one.

„You know them", I reminded her, trying to lighten her mood:"They're tough. They can do this"

„Murphy, open the damn door!"

„Did you hear that?", She asked, eyebrows furrowing as the grip on her gun tightened. I didn't like it, but I didn't say anything about it either. I nodded, already jogging over to the drop ship. I was making my way through the small crowd that had formed, not caring that I roughly bumped into some other prisoners.

„What's going on?", I asked Bellamy, slightly out of breath. He frowned, lowering his hand that was holding one of the radios. He looked at me, hesitating. I didn't know if he didn't really wanted me to know what's going on or was trying not to yell at me for the shit my boyfriend did. He probably considered both.

„Murphy's in there, with Jasper", he mumbled, silently passing me the radio. He thought that maybe I could talk him out of whatever idea he had. I hoped so, too. I firmly pushed the button, my thumb getting pale from all the force I was putting into it as I deeply inhaled:"John?"

No answer. I looked at Bellamy questioningly, he just nodded. It's supposed to work, why wasn't he answering?

„John?", I asked again, my heart beating faster and my hands started to shake. I was starting to get nervous, I had no clue what to do. There was a rattling sound, the radio cracked shortly before I got a reply:"What do you want?"

„I want you to stop this, okay? Please, just open the door and get out of the drop ship, do it for me. Do it for yourself. Nothing's going to happen to you if you just stop this", I whispered, my voice slightly cracking as tears blurred my vision. I was on the verge of crying because I knew he wouldn't stop. He'd never not finish what he started. He was too proud to give up.

„There's nothing to stop anymore, Noah", he said through his teeth, signaling there was no use in trying to talk to him. I let out a shaky breath, handing Bellamy back the radio before walking off. I didn't want to be seen like this. Again, I didn't want to be thought of as weak and whiny.

Raven walked over to me, not saying anything but pulling me into a hug. I smiled, happy that I had found a friend in her. She might seem tough, and boy, she was but she was also really caring.

„He's a dick", Raven growled and I nodded, frowning. I loved him.

How could he do this? He knew what he was getting himself into. He knew he wouldn't come out of this without punishment. He must've been completely dumb. I closed my eyes, regaining myself before pulling out of the hug.

„Jasper's still in there, we need to stop him", I told her, nodding to myself in approval. If Murphy didn't want it any other way, there was nothing I could do to save him. I tried but it was no use, now I had to save Jasper instead. I didn't think he was dead already, something told me John didn't have the guts to shoot him. Raven nodded upwards and I followed her look. One of the drop ship's panels were loose, there was a chance we could get inside.

„Go tell Bellamy", I ordered and she jogged away. I motioned for Tyler and Jared to come over and they looked at me confused. I rolled my eyes, obviously they didn't know what was going on. Where were they the past few minutes?

„Murphy's in there, he's got Jasper", I reported shortly and Tyler frowned. The two actually started to like him, guess that changed now. I asked them to break open the panel and Tyler mockingly saluted.

„Just do it", I chuckled, stressed out already. I wanted to go back to Bellamy but Octavia attacked me with a hug instead:"I'm sorry, Noah"

I sighed, holding onto her. Again, I was glad she was there for me. She was worried herself, more because of Jasper, of course.

„No need to be", I shrugged her off, turning to Bellamy:"What's your plan?"

„I'm going inside", he decided stubbornly. His sister protested in shock, not wanting her brother to practically sign his suicide note. The door of the drop ship opened, and Murphy started counting to 10. Octavia was looking extremely uncomfortable so I grabbed her hand for mental support. I could've imagine how she felt, I felt the same, knowing that they'd probably kill John, but I also felt brutally betrayed and didn't know why. Perhaps because he knew he'd never see me again after this stunt and didn't care. I was disappointed that I wasn't that important to him.

„I'm here", Bellamy announced loudly, and everyone remained silent. Everyone wanted to know what would happen next.

As expected, Jasper was pushed out of the drop ship as Bellamy entered, rolling in front of us. His hands were tied behind his back and he had a cloth wrapped around his mouth so he couldn't speak.

I saw the tear stains on his cheeks but didn't say anything. I wasn't close with Jasper so I let Octavia help him up.

„Fuck this shit", I cursed under my breath and broke into a run. I jumped up, grabbing the ramp that was moving up to close the entrance.

„Noah!", Octavia called out, just like Dad would every time I wouldn't listen. It was too late, though. I pulled myself up, sliding down on the other side. Out of breath and in a rush of Adrenaline I stumped inside, facing the boys. Bellamy frowned, looking sad and disappointed while Johns glare showed pure anger. Why was he angry at me? He was the one standing there, pointing a gun at a fellow prisoner.

„You son of a bitch!", I yelled angrily, running at him. I continued cursing and blaming him for everything as I rapidly punched his chest. I must've looked like a complete lunatic but I didn't care. I was beyond angry, if I could feel this way towards the grounders they'd be dead within a second. John was lucky I loved him.

„How could you be that brainless? Huh? Don't you know what shit you're getting yourself into?!", I sobbed, pushing him once again. I heard a clicking sound, feeling something press against my stomach. My breath stopped and my eyes widened. Did he really-

„Murphy you don't want to do this", Bellamy said, taking a step forward. I closed my eyes, inhaling deeply. This might've been the last time I ever breathed. I couldn't believe he was aiming at me, ready to shoot me if necessary. I have never felt more worthless in my live. I've never felt more cheated on. Yesterday he told me he loved me and now he was ready to kill me. Was he just pretending everything? Has he been using me? I didn't understand how he could be so cruel.

„Stay back or I'll shoot!", he warned, shaky breaths escaping his lips. His hands were shaking and his eyes were tearing up. I'd like to imagine it was because he loved me and didn't want to kill me but otherwise I wouldn't be standing here, frozen. He was probably just under pressure.

„Don't do this to me", I begged, my voice barely audible as I shook my head.

„Shut up", he hissed, shooting at the ceiling. He was showing us that he was serious. Octavia frequently called out our names, asking if we were alright. Of course, I wasn't. My best friend and boyfriend wanted to kill me. All the years of our friendship seemed to be forgotten. At least, they didn't seem to matter at him.

„You want them to know you're alive?", he asked, looking past me at Bellamy:"Start tying."

I knew what he was talking about. Bellamy was the one that hung Murphy. It's all coming back to him now. I remembered the pain I felt when I thought John was dead, I also remembered the pain I felt when I was attacked by that panther. The pain I was feeling now was far worse. My life was passing by in my mind, recalling every memory I had that made me happy – they made me sad at the same time, considering that it was either with my Dad or with John. One of them was dead and the other one didn't seem to care about me at all. I closed my eyes, not being able to face John. I didn't know what I was supposed to do. Bellamy would die soon and there was no way I could help him.

„Now get up and toss it over"

Shit. John wasn't kidding, he really wanted Bellamy hung. I needed to do something. I was about to turn around but Murphy grabbed my arm forcefully, making me face him.

„You don't move. Don't look", he growled, with slight concern in his voice? There was hope for me. There was this little spark, letting me believe that there was a chance he still loved me. He might still care about me.

„I hate him too, John, but please... don't kill him", I whispered but he ignored me, looking away again. Seeing him this ruthless broke my heart. I really hated Bellamy, he was an egoistic asshole, only caring about himself and maybe Octavia. Clarke, Finn and Monty were lost and he didn't even try to find them because it was 'too dangerous'. He didn't care that he was killing one of his own men as he hung John. Suddenly, I snapped. I could understand that he wanted to kill him. The anger I had towards John seemed to be direction towards Bellamy now. Suddenly, I didn't care. I didn't want him dead exactly, but if I couldn't help him – I couldn't help him. The only thing that worried me was Octavia and the looks she'd give me. Bellamy tried to apologize, but Murphy didn't even want to here it, he just wanted him to die. I wanted him to die, too, it'd only be fair but at the same time I didn't want him to, knowing it'd be too cruel.

Bellamy tried to protest and again, John shot, missing him on purpose. I secretly hoped Jasper and Raven would be here soon, to end this.

„Put it over your head", Murphy instructed coldly. I wasn't allowed to look, all I heard was heavy breathing. I think he did it.

„Happy now?", he asked, beyond pissed.

„You're so brave, aren't you? You came here thinking that you were just gonna turn this whole thing around... that you're stronger than me and one of your friends would be coming to help you?", John pulled the rope that was made out of seat belts around his wrist, walking away from me. This time, I dared to turn around and I wished I didn't. John was slightly pulling at the rope, Bellamy standing up on his tiptoes, having trouble breathing already. He tried to look brave but he seemed broken inside. Even though I thought that's what he deserved, I knew it was wrong. I knew we were just like the grounders – heartless. I couldn't just watch, but I couldn't fight either. I had no choice and it made me feel really sorry.. It even caused me to be angry at myself. I rubbed my face, hoping Raven would hurry up and get here already. But what were they gonna do once the doors were open? I'm sure Octavia would burst in, killing Murphy with nothing but her hands. I couldn't let that happen, either. I loved John, no matter how dumb he was. I just couldn't help it.

„We know the truth, don't we?", he said calmly, walking in front of him:"You're a coward. I learned that the day you kicked that crate from beneath me. You were just giving the people what they wanted, right?"

„I should have stopped him", Bellamy admitted. I wasn't sure if he realized what he did now or if he wanted to get away from this situation. Something told me he just said that to stay alive. Bellamy was that kind of guy, only caring about himself and pretending the others were important to him.

John didn't believe him, neither did I.

„What are you doing after you killed me? Think they're just gonna let you walk out of here?", he asked and John shrugged, smirking:"Well, I think the princess is dead. And the king is about to die so who's gonna really lead those people, huh? Me. Maybe I have to kill your grounder pounding little sister"

He wouldn't dare killing Octavia. I wouldn't let that happen. We haven't known each other for long, not even for two weeks but I really liked here and I wouldn't let anyone ruin our friendship. Sure, I wouldn't kill John, either, I guess I'd just defend her until I died. I might've been a bitch sometimes, but I was a loyal bitch.

Bellamy tried to kick Murphy but he dodged it, pulling on the rope again. There was a short scream, probably Raven as my boyfriend took out his gun, shooting at the floor several times. I flinched, afraid he hit her. He kicked over the crate Bellamy was standing on, causing him to wiggle in the air, panting. He couldn't breathe. I just stood there, watching. I was frozen, not knowing what to do or how to react. I didn't want him to die and at the same time, I didn't. I knew if I tried to help him, John would knock me out. To be honest, I didn't want to miss anything.

My head whipped around as I heard the drop ship's door open. It'd be over now. I didn't know if I was relieved because Bellamy had a chance of surviving or if I was afraid because of John now. Both, I guess. I hated standing between two sides. John looked at the door, to me, then back to the door. Hastically, he climbed up the ladder. He was gone quickly, leaving me. I cursed under my breath, taking the crate and I tried to put it under Bellamy's feet. I was hoping to stable him, but he was too far up.

„Bellamy, hold on!", Octavia screamed as her and Jasper tried to open the knot on the rope, holding him up. Suddenly, he fell on the floor, inhaling sharply. I sighed. He was alive, for now. He stood up, aggressively calling out for Murphy's name. I wanted to stop him, but I knew I didn't have a chance. There was a loud bang, so loud I almost needed to cover my ears but as soon as it erupted, it stopped again. The hatch was easier to open now and as Bellamy did so, there was smoke running out of the upper floor. Murphy had blown up the damn drop ship, making its way outside. He was running away. He was leaving me.