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XII: Knock Knock get the door its Anxiety

Tw: panic attacks, childhood trauma!

11 pm. April and Precious are probably asleep right now. I couldn't. So I started drawing. I started drawing anything. I settled on drawing an orchid. I tried starting to draw it bit i couldn't. I dont know why i was having a hard time drawing an orchid but im failing. Shit. Im failing.

No.no.no. not right now. Not when everyone is asleep.

I get flashbacks of when i was in elementary school and wen i went home, i would always get hit by my dad when i got a bad grade on a test.

I felt my chest tighten. I couldn't breathe. My ears started ringing, my vision started getting blurry and my breathing became uneven.

Fuck.

I grabbed my phone of the table and opened contacts, i pressed the person on top but couldn't read the name. I pressed the call button and was met with a male voice.

"Cora? What are you doing up its 11:30" Clay asks.

I couldn't speak. I couldn't form words. Its when he heard my breathing was when he figured out what was going on.

"Cora, are you okay?"

"N-no" i manage to say.

"Hey, its okay, alright? Its gonna be okay. Im coming over right now. Can you wait a few minutes? Can you do that for me?"

"Yeah. I t-think." I say. His voice calming me down a bit.

He ends the call but before he does i hear a car starting.

CLAY'S POV

I start the car and end tha call. Quickly droving to her house. Thr 10 minute drive soon became 7.

I walk up to thier house and luckily Cora gave me a spare key to Thier house a few days ago.

I rush up to her room and open the door, being met with her on her desk, knees close to her chest.

"Hey, hey. Can i touch you?" I ask.

She nods and i help her up to walk to her bed where it is more comfortable.

I try to comfort her in hopes that she calms down.

"Ill be right back, okay?"

I walk out of her room and leave the door open. I walk down the stairs and go to their kitchen to grab two water bottles, one for each of us.

I make my way up to her room amd see her trying to steady her breathing.

"You okay? You wanna talk about it?" I ask.

"Uhm. Yeah sure. Just a bit shook still." She answers, breath still shaky.

"Well, do you wanna go for a drive?"

"I would like that. I need the fresh air anyways."

So here we are, In my car while i try to console her. We eventually drive to a field. The stars looking as pretty as ever in the night sky.

"You wanna stargaze?" I asks.

She nods and we get out of the car and lay down on the grass.

"Y'know, if the slots for an art course were all closed, astronomy would've been my second choice. I loved astronomy growing up, looking at the start and seeing them form pretty shapes. We have a rooftop on our house in the Phillipines and every night, after my father would hit me, i would go up to the rooftop and just look at the stars. Eventually, we learned about astronomy in school and i listened to every single word of it." I looked at her as she rambled.
" Oh , im sorry i was rambli-"

"Its fine, you're okay." I say as we let out a small chuckle. She always found a way to put butterflies in my stomach.

We spend up until 2:30 am in the field because Cora actually had an amazing sleep schedule and she doesn't stay up this late so she was getting pretty droopy.

I drive her back to her house and bid our goodbye to eachother.

CLOUDY NOTES!

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