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XXV : just some philosophy to make this book more fun.

If they just went with eachother into the store, this wouldn't have happened.

If they had just went home, this wouldn't have happaned.

If they never took the car, this wouldn't have happened.

If he never persuaded her to tell her parents, they didn't have to go an the date, this wouldn't have happened.

If they just hadn't started dating, this wouldn't have happened.

If they never went on the sunset date, this wouldn't have happened.

If they hadn't been bored that day, this wouldn't have happened.

If she never drew him, this wouldn't have happened.

A million ifs and things that could've been prevented, or handled differently. But that would change the course of everything, wouldn't it.

Some would say it's God's plan. Some might think it's fate. Others believe that it was just meant, or never meant, to be. Whatever the case, everything happens for a reason.

But when you're in pain, you don't see that. It's very possible you know it deep down, but that won't stop you.

Because when you're in pain, or when you're angry, you find someone to blame. And someone who you can fault for everything gone wrong.

Who better to choose, then the one that made it happen? The driver.

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"She has a collapsed lung, which is why she's on her side there. Right here-" the doctor said, gesturing to the plastic tube by her ribs. "-is the tube we put to get rid of some of the fluid and air"

"Will she be okay?" I ask.

"Most likely, yes."The doctor said. After a few more questions and concerns she had left.

April is on the other side of the bed with Precious and they were both holding her hand while letting out a few sniffles here and there.

"So what exactly happened? You didn't tell us. "Cora, accident, hospital!" Was the only thing you said when you called us." Precious said before she let out a sniffle.

I start to tell them what happened, from when we left the café and to when i turned around. I was looking down at the floor the entire time because of guilt, i couldn't look at them. They are her best friends, i could just imagine the look of disgust on their faces when i look up.

"Yeah, it was all kinda my fault. Im sorry." I mumble.

"Hey, its ok. It not your fault. We haven't beat you up yet, so its not your fault." April says. I finally look up to them to see them looking at me with sympathetic smiles.

I smile back at them. Just then, George and Sapnap walk in.

"What happened?" George asks, worry covering his face.

"Is she ok?!" Sapnap half yells.

Precious immediately went to Nick and hugged him. Nick hugged back while trying to comfort her.

George went to April and asked her if she was ok, she just nodded at him and asked if they could go outside.

"Were gonna go outside." George says. I nod and look back at Precious and Nick. They had also gone out.

This must hurt so much for them. I mean, they have known each other for years and then they have the chance of possibly losing one of the people who have seen you at your worst and helped you get through it.

"Hey, i know you probably won't hear this. But were all worried for you. I said i was gonna stream tonight but i canceled. It's fine, i know you're probably gonna scold me for canceling the stream but can you blame me?" I talk to, what i thought was, particularly nothing before i felt her squeeze my hand.

"Who said i was gonna blame you?" She whispers and smiles.

CLOUDY NOTES!

SUMMER BREAK! WOOHOO!
But it was a crying match at school today. Everyone was on the floor sobbing, well only me and my friends but you get the point.

Anyways gotta get back to watching gilmore girls byee.

673 words.

-Signing off, Cloudy.