The Alpha Second Mate

The Shift Under The Full Moon

14. The Shift Under The Full Moon
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The pack was buzzing by the time I woke up, and howls can be heard everywhere, everyone must be anticipating for the full moon that was coming this night but I only thought of the pain I was going to endure and the pain Kaden would endure as well.

I woke up early today, I had not done much sleeping, I had taken my showers at around five a.m and when I had gotten ready, I made my way with slight difficulty with the directions to the pack kitchen to help those that were preparing breakfast, they were a bit surprised to see me but they allow me help them but they made sure I was given minimal work despite my protest. Where they afraid to overwork me fearing the Alpha's wrath?, they should know by now where I stood in Kaden's life and that was nowhere.

The breakfast was ready as much as I would have wanted to eat in the kitchen, the head of the kitchen, Nathaniel has informed me that it was against the Alpha orders to not eat in the dining halls, he explained that, that was Kaden's way of strengthening the relationship with pack members, "pack members that eat together stay together", those were the exact words of Nathaniel.

I held a plate of food in my hand as walked into the dining halls, my head lowered down, I know Kaden is aware of my presence, the perks of the bond, I feel his confusion seep through for a moment before his walls are back up, I know he feels everything that I feel, I am not good in putting up a wall completely in my mind while I am not yet fully connected to my wolf.

He watches my movements, while Ciara was trying to gain his attention, I almost laugh at her attempts but I didn't, why was Ciara mateless even at her age, she looked twenty five or six, I had no idea how old Kaden was

I ignore the stares and find the farthest and empty table at the corner of the halls to sat on, their gazes still followed me, wondering what I am doing, they must be mind linking each other trying to decipher my behavior but there wasn't really much to decipher , I am not welcomed here and I know my place.

"What are you doing?" I hear his voice for the first time in my head, it sent a frenzy down my spine as I feel the bond between us resonating, this must be the first time effect, the first time in each others mind, well the first time I am able to be in his mind, it means the wall has been let down, I feel his anger as well at my decision to sit here, but what did he want me to do, did he not want me to sit here, did he not want me to eat with them.

That was it right, then I will leave . I picked up my plate as I stood up, the pack members were watching me like a hawk, like I was the most interesting thing in the universe right now but I don't blame them, I would have done the same if I were to be in their shoes.

I carefully made my way through the tables and I was almost out of the door before Kaden's voice resonated in the halls "Stop right there!" He says ever loudly.

I freeze on the spot and I turn back immediately away from the door, I was utterly puzzled was he going to embarrass me again in front of the pack, that would be heartbreaking and too much to bare if my wolf do not decide to force shift and die, the shame might just kill me faster, what had I done wrong exactly, I was not causing anyone harm, did my presence really irritated him that much that I am not supposed to eat with the pack, was he really making me an outcast in this lands.

Please, I will leave in peace, I apologize for the intrusion. I said through the mind link

Don't move . He responded back through the mind link, he was angry I knew it, this was a big mistake, I shouldn't have listened to Nathaniel and just eat in the kitchen