Death's Silence ||Tyunning Story||

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05.12.2018
12:00 PM

Nothing changed much in the past months... Or what I think are months.
My body is full of bruises, wounds and burn marks, my underwear is in shreds and it's colder this days, I don't even remember the last time I ate something... I probably lost more than 10 kilograms.
I don't even know how many times I had mirages for luck of food... I miss Kai so bad, I'm trying to hold on, but I don't think I'll get out of here alive... Or that I'll get out of here in general.
"Jack! Give him something to eat... Give him this pear" I hear my dad from the window and the guy named Jack gives me the pear my dad gave him.
I ate it quite fast as I'm basically starving to death... I mean, they're literally letting me starve to death.
<<Jack... What day is it?>> I ask him quietly as I barely have the energy to speak.
"December 5th... Why?" He asks back.
<<Just asking... Today should be Soobin hyung's birthday>> I say.
"One of your girl gay friends?" He asks mockingly.
<<Yes>> I sigh... It's a shame I can't attend his birthday party... He should be 18... Yeah, his two years older than me... He's officially an adult now! I'm so happy for him! I hope Kai goes to his birthday party and that they'll have fun.

15:00 PM

I hear the door opening again for the second time this day... I guess.
"Not so nice to see you again whore!" Says my dad.
<<Then don't come see me>> I say a little louder than before so he can hear... Can't I just quit this bitchy attitude for once? It's literally killing me for fuck sake!
"Look at you... You don't even look like a human anymore and you still have the audacity to talk with such an arrogance! Who do you think you are!?" He says and laughing out loud and I scoff looking away from him.
"I bet your fagot boyfriend of yours won't even be able to look at you like that... You're so disgusting! I can literally count your ribs" He says again and I just sit there tied up, not responding and taking everything in.
He's not so wrong though... I can barely picture myself in Kai's arm with all that remains of me... I'd look so ugly beside him, he's basically a God, an angel sent from heaven and... I look like the horseman of Death, basically a skeleton.
"Let's make sure that when he'll see you he won't even recognize you for how disgusting you will look" He says punching in the face.
He cuts the ropes that keeps me glued to the chair and drags me near the wall by my ear, grabbing a baseball bat.
"Oh yeah! I said when he will see you... But probably he won't ever see you again" I look at him more scared than ever while he's smiling at what he's about to do.
<<No>> I mouth as a couple of tears falls on my boney cheeks.
He then starts beating with the baseball bat, hitting strong every time.
After the third one I lost consciousness.

15:20 PM

"I told you to fucking wake up!" I hear him yelling his lungs at me as my face gets hit by a strong slap.
Everything hurts more than ever and I can barely breathe.
<<I-I'm a-awake>> I whisper as I feel blood in my mouth and nose.
"Stand up!" He orders but as I try a sharp pain all over body hits and I'm practically paralyzed.
"Stand up! You brat!" He yells again and I try again but my muscles barely moves with a lot of effort and pain.
<<I can't!>> I replay back and he takes me by the neck, choking me and lifting me up from the floor for leaving me on my feet.
I stand only a second before falling again, since my legs can barely keep me up.
"You're finally dying ugh? Good... Say goodbye to your dear boyfriend... He's probably be the next one having this treatment!" Says my dad dragging me to the chair and tiding my wrists again.
I scream in pain as he does, before leaving me there crying and bleeding everywhere.
<<I'm sorry Kai... I'm sorry Honey... I don't think I'll live any longer... Please remember me, I love you... I love you so much... Goodbye Honey>> I whisper between my tears as I cough a little, spitting blood in the meantime.

I don't know how many times I thought I would die back then, but something or someone never let me... I guess this world loves us even if we are broken and completely messed up.
My sweet sweet Honey... He's my whole world to me.