Death's Silence ||Tyunning Story||

XXXVII

25.02.2019
19:00 PM

I'm staring at the void, hoping that my eyes will soon close forever as my whole body hurts for God knows what.
I honestly don't know how am I still alive... Just please kill me, I have no goals, no dreams, no aspirations and I don't even know what kind of diseases or infections are going around my body right now.
Kai is dead, apparently my parents are right and God is doing everything to keep us apart, even keeping alive a dead body.
I feel like my heart is getting weaker and weaker, I start gasping for breathing as I start feeling dizzy.
My eyes slowly close, as the sounds becomes some quieter, some loud in my ears.
I smile, it is really time to finally die.
"Hello Sweetheart" I hear Kai's voice in my ears as my body gives up completely.

Suddenly my body gets shaken as I feel something pressing on my wounds, that makes me grin my teeth.
"Taehyun! Hey wake up! Taehyun!" I hear a familiar female voice.
<<Grr that hurts>> I say, even if it comes out as a whisper.
"You're alive! Thank God!" She says as I wake up, seeing my sister in front of me.
<<He's not though... Noona... Let me die... There's no reason for me to go on>> I beg her with my eyes, that soon are filled with tears.
"I'm not gonna let you die Taehyun! You're my little brother, why on earth would I let you die?"
<<'Cause there's no reason for me to live, if he's not here anymore!>> I rise my voice.
"Wait... You think that Kai is dead?" She asks and I look at her confused.
<<He's not?>> I ask her back.
"No! He's okay! I mean, he's in the hospital recovering from the injury, but he's fine!"
<<Really?>>
"Yes!" She exclaims and I cry for happiness, he's fine, thank God he's fine, he hasn't left me yet.
<<I thought he was dead>> I say through tears.
"He's fine, but I need to take care of you now, I got you something to eat and something to clean your wounds... Wait when was the last time you eat?" She asks and I am there trying to think.
<<I don't know... Maybe a week or two? I don't remember>> She gasps giving me a whole full meal to eat as she removes the handcuffs and cleans my wounds and body.

As I finish eating I start wandering a lot of things about my apereance... Do I look ugly? Am I that disgusting as everyone say? How my body look like right now? I bet I look like a walking skeleton... Would Kai still love me... Even if I look like what I look like right now?
<<Seohyun... Can I ask you something?>>
"Of course Hyunie, everything!"
<<How do I look like?>> I ask her and she looks at me sadly, even if she tries to hide it, but I guess I kinda know why <<I look like a skeleton, right?>> I ask her again.
"I have a small mirror in my purse... Here" She says facing the reflecting surface towards me.
As I see myself a small tear drops.
My cheekbones are swollen, my cheeks are sunken, my nose has a bump, it's crooked and boney, I have a scratches all over my face and a deep wound on my right cheekbone, I have black circles under my eyes and my hair are now long.
I reach my arm to lower the mirror and I look at it for a few seconds in horror... They seem the arms of a skeleton or a monster and my fingers are blue for the cold, I wouldn't be so surprised if I'll remain handless when I'll get out of this, my wrists have a red ring on them and as I look at my reflection again I almost puke for disturbing and dirty I look.
My sister puts gently her hand on my cheek, wiping away my tears.
"Taehyun all of this is temporary and you know it, don't overthink about it okay?" She says.
I nod touching her arm.
"Shit! It's frozen!" She says, lowering the mirror to my body and warming up my hands with hers and a scarf.
I can see my collarbones peeking out more than they should, as the bones of my shoulders do the same, I can see every single one of my ribs through my skin... I look likely an X-ray more than a human.
<<I bet he'll throw up as soon as he sees me... He's way more handsome to deserve me anyway>> I say with a shaky voice crying.
Seohyun dries my tears again, while still warming up my hands.
"He won't, trust me, he can't wait to hug you and take care of you... You'll always look amazing in his eyes, I know that" She says and I smile a little.
<<Thanks>>
"No problem"
<<Can you help me stand up?>> I ask her.
"Of course, come here" She helps me to stand on my feet, but as soon as she leaves her arms my legs start shaking and I feel them so weak, I take only one step forward and I almost fall to the ground, luckily my sister catches me on time and takes me back to the chair.
"You're way to weak to even stand up Taehyun... I'll try to sneak here and bring you something more often, I can't take you out of here so weak" She pets my head and smiles.
"You'll make it out alive, now I have to tie you again, otherwise they'll kick me out"
<<Okay>> I say putting my hands behind the chair as she ties my wrists.
<<I love you noona>> I say as she walks away.
"I love you too Teahyunie" She closes the door and I'm left alone again.

My sister is everything to me, I couldn't imagine my life without her, she's my fine line and I wouldn't be alive without her.
I love you sister, thank you again for everything.