She's What I Need

mending what's broken

kiaras pov:

"shit" i start to think but my mind is at a blank.

"no. no. fuck!" i scream and starting to cry. i start hyperventilating. and sarah comes over to try and calm me down.

"it's all my fault" i say between sobs while i'm hugging her.

"we will find him." sarah says.

"wait- what- what if he's not alive by the chance we find him?" i say and start crying even more.

john b doesn't even consider that as a possibly and goes to another thought, "where could he be yall. think long and hard." john b says and i feel guilty like this is all of my fault.

"the beach. his secret spot." pope says.

"or smoking a blunt by the chateau, or the dock, or the hammock." john b says but i shake my head.

"he's not on the dock. i was just there. and i think i would've seen him." i say.

"wait what if he's on the bridge. on the cliff. he said he was going there yesterday." pope say's because he's the smartest person in our whole group.

"your a fucking genius." john b says. "ok at least two people need to stay back. just in case he comes back." he says and we all agree.

"we will stay back. y'all are the people who's known jj the best. y'all can go." sarah says with cleo's hand intertwined with hers.

"great." john b says and kisses her bye. pope hugs cleo and says his goodbye. makes me feel a little lonely. but we will find jj. hopefully.

the OG'S all get in the twinkie and head to the cliff. we get out and see if jj is over there.

"shit." john b says.

i see pope with a tear in his eye looks over to the ocean, to see if he saw jj.

"he's not here guys." pope said.

"fuck." john b says sitting down trying to think.

"should we just try riding around outer banks to see if we see him?" john b says.

"gonna be a lot of ground to cover" pope says.

"he's my best fucking friend. i'll cover however much ground it takes." john b says and me and pope nod and get in the twinkie.

we ride around and see the grave yard. i'm looking out the window and see the blonde haired boy. my boy.

"STOP!" i scream and john b hits the brakes hard.

"what kiara?" pope says annoyed cause he just got slammed in the car seat in front of him.

"guys he's at the graveyard. i just saw him come on." i say and john b hesitates.

"do you want it to be like a just yall thing?" john b says considerately.

"you guys love him too. we need to hurry." i say signaling him to get out the car.

we all get out and are as quiet as we can be. we approach him getting closer but from behind so he can't see us, and we are barely making any noise so he can't hear us. the boys keep walking but i stop them and put my finger over my mouth to try to tell them to be quiet.

"im broken mom." i hear jj say and i start to cry silently. i look over at john b and he has a fallen face, jaw slightly down, eyes wide and glossy, then i look at pope and his is mostly the same.

john b steps out and jj sees him while his forehead his attached to the grave crying. he looks over to see john b and then he wraps his arms around him and they hug tight. all i could hear it there loud sobs. john b was even crying hard.