She's What I Need

a god

jjs pov:

after me and kie kiss from on the dock. john b walks towards us.

"told you jj. nothing to worry about" he says as we notice he saw us making out.

"aww you were worried?" she asks looking at me.

"worried is an understatement. you see all the broken shit everywhere, yeah that's from me after i heard what you said in the twinkie" i say and see her feel bad as the words left my mouth.

she paused. "i was really confused and my brain was clouded-" she starts to say.

"kie. it's alright. we are good and everything is figured out. don't worry" i say and she looks down and smiles.

"ok lovebirds. what should we do today?" john b asks.

"i really need to find a therapist." i say and they both look at me.

"i'll do research." kie says patting me on the shoulder.

"sooo should we go to tannyhill?" john b asks.

"yeah sure" me and kie say around the same time.

we three pile up in the twinkie and go to tannyhill. we don't talk much in the car, but it wasn't awkward, it was just quiet.

"when are they rebuilding the chateau jb" i ask john b.

"like next week actually" he says.

"how long is it gonna take to rebuild?" i ask.

"i don't know jj. i know it's gonna take some time though. at least 3 months." he says and i gasp.

"we were better at poguelandia." i say.

"it was definitely a dream come true" kie says.

"tell me about it. too bad the dream was cut short" i say and a lightbulb goes off in my head.

"kie! let's go on a getaway trip. for like a solid month" i say and she laughs like i'm joking.

"your serious?" she says stopping to laugh.

"i thought that's what you wanted too" i say confused.

"with what money? and also my parents would NEVER allow that." she says.

"it doesn't cost any money to stay on a random island, also your not even talking to your parents right now. for anything they think your still in that kitty shitwhole." i say laughing and she looks down.

"sorry that was a joke" i say and she remains looking down.

"jj. i went to my house yesterday" she says and we heard john b say "oh boy" and gets awkward because he's just driving listening to us.

"why would you do that kiara? they are dangerous" i say and she shakes her head.

"no. i missed them, they missed me. i trusted my gut, and went there and we talked, laughed, watched a movie, made popcorn. it was normal family stuff" she says and it stings me that i never got that, normal family stuff to me is getting into raging fights with luke and him blasting his music and mentally abusing me after until he passes out. sad that i never got what kie got. i want to kill luke. murder him. murder every single day i walked in that damn house feared for my life.

"jj? say something" kie says and i just snap back to my thoughts.

"and what exactly happens when they get people to nap you in the night while your sleeping in bed?" i say and her jaw drops.

"he does have a point but uh there's nicer ways you could've said that" john b says. low blow. i know.

"i care about you kiara. i don't trust them" i say looking in her eyes. she looks down and then i realize that i might be pulling her away from them or making her get the feeling that she had to choose between her family and me. i don't want her to feel like that.