She's What I Need

someones a liar

jjs pov:

i've got to pull it together. i've been so screwed up and i've seen how much it has affected all my the people who care about me, especially including kiara. i don't need kiara getting depressed on me, she already has enough shit to deal with. and john b and sarah just lost their dads, that's so fucking selfish of me to want to die when there own dads just did. and cleo, well as for her she hasn't told us much about her home life but for all i know she may not even have parents, and pope, well he doesn't have it the hardest but he's had to abandon his family and put us first so many times. all i'm trying to get at is that we've all been through shit, and i've probably went through the least, so i need to stop whining about my daddy issues and just deal with it in my own time. i need to be strong for kiara, no matter how much she says i can talk to her and cry to her, it makes me feel so fucking weak. i just need to pull it together, push some pain down, and put my friends first. they deserve to be happy.

i decide to get up and go downstairs.  kie woke up in the middle of the night sense i was up so i thought that she can sleep for longer cause she's most likely tired. i don't want to take more sleep away from her.

i go downstairs and see cleo and pope flirting (as always) and john b and sarah cuddling (as always).

"what's up y'all!" i say in a happy tone.

"jj? what made you wake up on the right side of bed?" john b said greeting me.

"well, i woke up this morning so that's a great start." i say energetically.

"didn't you want to die yesterday?" pope whispered sarcastically.

i flipped him off and watched cleo slap him for 'being rude' but it's how we joke around. the boys have a deep sense of humor.

"well pope at least i didn't lose a scholarship." i say laughing.

"you had no scholarship to began with buddy but i'll let you think you had a good comeback." he says patting me while walking to the kitchen.

"i'm so hungry" i hear sarah say to john b and then i realize i haven't eaten in forever. i've been to depressed to eat and it shows.

"i should cook pancakes. i'm an amazing cook!" i say walking to the kitchen.

"hell no buddy. i'm the betta cook" cleo says.

"oh sure you are" i say back.

"i cook all kind of tings. i'm cooking the pancakes" she explains to me.

"how about y'all do a cooking battle? we will rate which pancakes are better" sarah says and i look at her.

"bring it on rude boy!" cleo says and runs to the kitchen.

"your over with darling" i say to her and then go and get all the ingredients. we start baking and im winning obviously.

i see kie walk in with a confused look on her face. "what's going on" she asked looking at me and cleo laughing while flipping pancakes. the whole house is burning up.

"jj and cleo are having a breakfast baking battle because they both claim they are the 'best cooks'" i hear sarah say to kiara and she walks over by me.

"hey baby" she says to me then follows it with a kiss. i cup her face and stare at her. she was made perfectly, and it makes me so glad that she looks relieved and happy.

"sorry i gotta admire" i admit to her and she giggles.

"JJ YOUR PANCAKES ARE GONNA BURN" pope yells at me. whoops.

"oh shit" i drop kiaras face and she frowns. i hurry and flip the pancake perfectly and put an L in front of cleo's face to rub it in.

"your so annoying. i got tis ting watch." she says to me then drops the pancake on the ground. "AH SHIT MAN" she says and pope dies of laughter.