I slept on the couch downstairs, still feels better compare to my own bed, though Billie’s bed definitely feels better. When I woke up, Billie was already there sitting across from me on the other couch with blankets wrapped around her self.
"Hey" I say softly, and sat up before patting the empty space next to mine. Her eyes lit up then hurried over.
“When did you get here?” she says softly
“Uh, last night. I came over but you were at Zoe’s so I brought you home” she nods and slowly brought her hands up to my face
"Your face" she whispers, brushing her fingers over the bruises
"It'll heal" I smile weakly, she looks down and put her hand on my chest
"That too" I added, caught her by surprise
"Im so sorry" she choked, a tear fall from her eyes and I brought her closer to me. Wrapping my arms tight around her, inhaling her scent that I've missed so much.
"I forgive you" I whisper in her ear, and her grip got tighter around me
"Ow ow ow, easy now" I chuckle
She released immediately and pull her self away, but I stopped her mid way and held her hands.
"What do you remember from last night?" I say slightly worried
"Oh no... What did I do?" She pulled her hands away and cover her face. I can't help but laugh, definitely relieved
"Nothing bad, you asked me to take you to dinner..." I say casually
"Before getting into your pants while I was searching for your keys" I continued with a smug look
"Nooo I did not say that. Fuck let me crawl into a hole" she blushed "can I ask you something?"
"Yeah dude, just ask" I say
"Why didn't you want me to know about what happened to you in the beginning?"
"Honestly, there was a thought that maybe you wouldn't have cared anyway. So rather than telling you and then being proven right and being hurt by it. Might as well not tell you so that I won't know" I explained. Won't be the first time anyway that I've done that.
She looked at me concerned. "What do you mean not the first time?" Shit did I say that outloud?
"I uhh" panicked. "I mean like, there's stuff that I didn't tell you just cuz you know, I'm scared of rejection- I mean your reaction. Come on I'm sure you have stuff that you never told me" does that make sense? Or am I just digging a hole here
"O-kay" she said uncertain
"I think I'm gonna get going" I said in a rush before she could press on the matter any further "hopefully you won't have too bad of a hungover, and I uhh I'll text you later" I joked. Billie seem to be deep in her thought, and I hurried my self out the door to get back to my bike.
The door swung open, just when I'm about to go "will you come and stay over tonight? We're leaving tomorrow for a week." She pleaded
I simply nodded and wave her goodbye before zooming out of there.
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I've cleared my thoughts, regained my composure, and hid away my feelings towards Billie. "I have arrived!" I yell dramatically when I enter their house. That earned a few chuckles from Patrick and Maggie. "Where's Billie?" I ask casually while taking off my helmet and putting it aside
"I think she's in the backyard" Patrick replied
I opened the sliding door to the back and saw Billie across the yard sitting on the swing. Her face lit up when she saw me and patted the seat next to her repeatedly.
"So I was thinking, since you're...injured. You won't be able to train anyway. Wanna come with us? I just have a few lil shows, and you know it'll be fun" she said
"Uhhh, I mean can I think about it?"
"Oh." She said taken aback slightly that I didnt agree right away "yeah of course" she said, trying to hide her disappointment as best as she can "but what do you have to think about? I mean like in a way that maybe I can help you figure it out?"she continued
"Umm" I tried to think what would be the reasons that I might have to think about. And I could only think of one. "Yeah sure, I'd love to come" I say
She doesnt look convinced "you know you can say no right?" She said worried probably still thinking about our conversation earlier
"Yeah, yeah I know. I was just thinking like I probably need to ask my parents" lies, Billie even gave me a look "I don't know it just crosses my mind, but yea shouldn't be a problem. It'll be fun!" I say trying to be enthusiastic, not sure if Billie bought it though.
We talked a lil bit more about the trip, she's playing a few shows that's a part of some charity event with her mum's organisation. I helped her pack, at the same time pack for myself as well.
I can do this. I've been hiding my feelings for her for this long, I'm sure spending time with her 24/7 for a week straight is nothing.
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Always been you | B.E (Ongoing)
Hayran Kurgu"Jay" he cut me off "just because you're in love with her, you can't let her get away with everything" I looked at him shocked, clearly all you can see is panic in my eyes. he chuckles "don't worry, I won't tell anyone" I look down at my bandaged ha...
