Anything is possible

Chapter 15

Jonny wraps his big arms around my body and hugs me tightly as he wants to protect me from something bad, I swear he's crying silently. I've disappointed him, I feel like shit. My eyes start to pour out teardrops too, we stay like this for some minutes then he cups my face and kiss me as if he didn't do it he'd die. I want to tell him that everything's going to be okay, that the fact I'm not pregnant doesn't mean I don't love him with all my heart and soul, that he isn't a failure because I know he's feeling like this, his eyes are saying. Only now I'm realising I was ready to be his baby's mother, did I really need to see him crying to realise? I'm such a stupid girl, I played with my sweetheart's emotions and I feel guilty.

"Jon please stop crying." I beg him

"Oh, I'm sorry. I just can't threaten." He says while keeping sobbing

"Jonnylove, listen to me. It's true, we're not having a baby, but this doesn't mean you aren't the best boyfriend ever. I love you so much and seeing you in tears makes me feel horrible."

"It isn't anyone's faults, it was only a misunderstanding. Don't feel guilty, please."

"C'mon, let's go. The guys are waiting for ur for the dinner." I utter in a single breath trying not to cry

"Yeah, my love. But first a kiss." He nods smiling

"All my pleasure."

We are at the table having a good meal when Jonny says silently something in Chris's ear, then they stand up apologising for they momentary absence and leave. After about ten minutes they come back laughing.

"You're completely crazy, mate!" Chris says

"Have we missed something?" Will asks curious

"No, it's nothing, really." Jonny answers

I wonder what they have to laugh that much... At least Jon is laughing after that sad moment. I'm well more or less, I care a lot about him and I don't want him to be upset because of me. But if I must tell the truth, I think something's going on between them two...

I'm tired and want to sleep, so I tell Jonny and we head to our room after having greeted Phil, Will, Guy and Chris. I have a quick cold shower, put on my pyjama and fall on the bed crawling in my soulmate's arms who was waiting for me. We cuddle a bit, but we are so tired that we fall asleep soon. The next morning I find myself still wrapped in his arms while he's staring at me, he enjoys seeing me sleeping, he says I seem like a cute little puppy.

"Good morning, sunshine." He says smiling

"Good morning to you, too."

I call Joanne to inform her about the false alarm and she breathes a sigh of relief when she comes to know that both of us are good and we didn't have a fight or else. I woke her up, it was 5 am in Ireland and she answered me despite that, I'm lucky to have a best friend like her. She cares a lot about me, and I do the same about her, plus we're both into Coldplay and that was the link between us that made our friendship grow. She's as a sister for me, even though we became friends few years ago when I was about to jump from a building and she was on the balcony of he opposite one. She gave me a reason to stay and try to go on and improve my life, since then she's been my guardian angel. I owe her a lot of things, including my own life.

*flashback*

I am on the top of an old building ready to jump and fly in the emptiness to end up with my existence, I am about to reach my lovely brother in the heaven. But suddenly I hear a voice, a girl's voice. What does she want? Another stupid person who wanna say I shouldn't do this, none of my friends, if I can call them as this, and relatives could stop me and now an unknown person should convince me? Absolutely not.