Anything is possible

Chapter 9

Hayley POV

It is getting cold, so we decide to go to have lunch somewhere. Luckily I've Jonny's sweatshirt that makes me feel warm. I'm really glad to have the band by my side, supporting and helping me when I have bad moments. I thank God every single second to have them, their friendship is the most precious thing I have in my whole life and this is still impossible for me to believe it. Remembering how all this happened makes me laugh because all started by Guy's fault and my reaction after opening my eyes was like a little heart attack. I thought I was dreaming or I had hit so bad my head somewhere that I could see the five kindest and sweetest men in the world worried about me. I definitely couldn't think that strange meeting would have turn into a friendship and a deeper one with Jonny.
He's always ready to help me, giving all his best to avoid my pain. I swear I would have been lost without him last night. He's like home where I come back everytime, better described as a shelter. Now he's my best friend, he has been able to cure my soul injuries faster than anyone before. I feel like I've found my real home in him, but not as a lover because I don't think I'm in love with him . Or well, I don't know if I am. I must talk to the girls about this, I trust them and they're the only people I can talk with, now. He's a very special friend for me but I don't know whether this specialness means more. Or maybe I can talk to Chris who knows Jonny very well, but I'm scared he could tell him. I'm a bit shy, so if he knew something, I wouldn't want to see him or just talk or chat. But first of all, I've to know what I feel for him. When we slept hugging each other I felt like even a hurricane had been able to come, but we'd have stayed still. I remember he started singing something, but not what song because I fell asleep as soon as he hugged me. He has a great voice but he doesn't appreciate it as much as anyone who hears him singing. This is because of his shyness. I do understand him because I feel same, even with my friends or family. I remember when I was at high school, I had to play a song in a musical while singing, but I didn't want because I felt ashamed. At the end I did it because I thought there weren't people in the audience and I was in my bedroom alone.
I'm getting lost in my thoughts, I need to stop.

"Are you with us, Hay?"

Will's words bring me back to reality.

"Sorry guys, I was thinking..." I reply back

"Please, stop thinking of that dork." Guy tells me

"I wasn't thinking of him, really. "

We get out of the pizzeria, I haven't eaten more than two small slices. I'm not hungry and I won't be in the next five hours. Everytime I'm quite sad, I lose my hunger and after I eat the whole fridge! I'm strange, I know, but I like this strangeness, because it's myself and nobody else!
Jonny and I leave the other guys to go to his house. I've all my things there, so we walk there and plus I've to come back to the uni.

"Have you taken all your things?" he asks me before leaving his house

"Yes Jon, we can go."

We walk down the streets while talking about my next maths exam. He offers to help me to study because now I've no one with doing it. Ian is the last person to ask; teachers suggested me to study with him because he's one of the best students, but I don't want to meet him anymore. Luckily tomorrow I'll come back home for Christmas holidays and stay there until the 6th of January. But I'll miss the girls, the band, Jonny. We can call one another, but it's not the same. Oh, I've to buy presents today, to Benny, Abby, Fay, my sister ... And I want also to Jonny, but what can I buy to a man who has everything? I really don't know! Ah, it's so difficult...

As we arrive, he tells me he's walking with me till my room, just to be sure I'll not meet Ian. He's so kind, he wants to protect me also from a monster, even if he can't.