Anything is possible

Chapter 17

I wake up at 7am the next morning and I can see from the curtains it's a sunny day, what a surprise for London! It's often cloudy and usually rains too, but today is different. Should it be that this morning clouds have decided to go elsewhere to let us poor humans to have some sunshine? I feel rested enough, but I don't want to leave my bed to start a new day and this is strange for me since I'm always the first to get up and start working earlier than the other guys at the studio. But now I must get up or my kids will be late at school if I don't.

I try to get up without waking up Hayley who is by my side, but while I am getting off, I notice she isn't breathing regularly. So I try to wake her, but then I realise she isn't breathing at all and her eyes are still closed. I get more and more panicked and I call her name while shaking her skinny body, which seems dead. I'm scared, afraid, my heartbeat is speeding up and I'm trembling, is she still in this world? I place my ear on her chest and my fingers on her throat and I hear a weak heartbeat, she is alive, I must hurry up! I manage to make her breath again, but nothing, she doesn't respond to any stimulus. I think I'm having a panic attack, I scream so loud her name that my little children run in our bedroom worried.

"Daddy, what's up?" Dave asks me

"Call Chris, Guy, Will and Phil immediately, your mum isn't doing well. They must hurry up!" I almost yell

They run away and pick the house phone, instead I made the ambulance number on mine and call. I'm so worried, what the fuck is happening, what the fuck is wrong?! I hear a doorbell and an ambulance siren and I know they are the guys. They help the nurses and doctors to pick her up on the barrel and I follow them in the vehicle, while Phil drives my kids to his house and the others head to the hospital.

In ten minutes all of us arrive and the doctors take Hayley in the emergency room for controls and to wake her up if she's still on Earth... I'm broken, I can't lose her, I fucking can't! I'm crying on Chris' shoulder and he's trying to quiet me down along with the others, but I feel like my heart is squeezing and wants to explode.

"Everything will be okay, Jay. Just have faith, we are with you, we aren't leaving you for any reason." He says and the others nod

"It's only a hour we are here, but it's seems eternity. This shouldn't have happened, not to her, why am not I the one who isn't well? Not her, no!" I manage to reply while sobbing

"Stand up everybody! Group hug." I hear Phil from behind who has just arrived

I feel a little bit better now because I know I'm supported by my best friends, but pain isn't leaving me so easily, my wife is still in that room, what's going on? It was three hours ago from when Phil came here... Is she dead and they don't want to tell us? If someone sees me right now, he'll think I'm an apathetic vegetal only for my dead expression on my face. If she dies how am I gonna live? How am I gonna grow my babies alone? How?

These questions are killing me, but overall the fact nobody hasn't got out of there yet. I'm falling into pieces, I hear my heart breaking and my mind exploding as if I had a grenade. The guys are worried too, they have spent so many time with her and we all saved her from her past demons. She has left a sign in our lives, she can't go away for any reason, her heart must keep beating!

I wonder if I have to call her parents and sister to inform them but they live in Ireland, they can't be here soon. I know they would catch the first plane and get here in seconds if they could... This wait is like a knife digging in my stomach, more and more and more till I fall down and my blood leaves completely my body. I stand up and begin to walk up and down the corridor to keep me busy, but this is worse than before because I become more anxious... When you this will be over?