Anything is possible

Chapter 19

Ali and Dave don't want to leave the hospital and go home, but Hayley needs to sleep because she's really tired. Indeed it's 7pm and she's gonna have dinner, then the nurse will prepare her, change her bed sheets and have the medicines, so she will be finally able to sleep. Guy and Joanne are coming here at the hospital to spend the night with Hayley and I hope they are going to get closer, I think they would be a perfect couple.

"Bye bye mummy, let's see tomorrow, sleep well!" Dave says and kisses her cheek

"Have beautiful dreams, goodnight mum!" Ali adds

I kiss her lips then head outside hand in hand with my kids to reach my vehicle and go back home. I order some pizza and we eat it in front of a cartoon on the sofa, then we eat some chocolate Cadbury buttons, Chris' favourite ones. The two buddies fall asleep and I pick them up and take them to their beds, it's been a long day and they need to rest.

I put on my pyjamas and jump on the bed, so I pick my phone and call Chris. After some seconds he answers.

"Hey Jonnyboy, how are you?" He almost screams

"Chris, my god, why are you breaking my ear through the phone? Anyways hello and how could I be?"

"Oh Jon Jon, I'm sorry... By the way, I've written a new song for our next album, but I need your guitar. It's nothing without your melody..." He says with a cheesy stupid voice

"Chris, I know you're inspired and stuff, but I'm not, I can't write anything. I'm broken in million pieces, my mind is heavy and my waist has a big void. How can I think about some riffs and chords when my life has become hell?" I whisper

"Jay, you're not good, your situation is not the best, but try to be positive for your wife, for your kids. You need to be supportive and not the one who needs support, okay?" He is serious now

"You're right, but I can't I feel low, buried in a grave... I don't know!"

"I, Guy, Will, Phil, we are with you, you're not alone. You'll get through this, I assure you."

"Thank you Chris, I'll be nothing without you. You're a wanker sometimes, but you're also my best friend, almost a brother. Thank you so much!"

"You're welcome Jay! Now I'm gonna try to sleep, goodnight." He says with a sleepy voice

"Yeah, goodnight."

I set up the alarm for the following morning and slip in the blankets falling asleep immediately. I dream about Hayley and me, our happy times we had before this happened and when I wake up again I feel my eyes wet, I cried in the sleep. Great!

As I go to the loo, my kids wake up and we have together a good breakfast watching some tv, they're my only reason of joy, looking at them laughing and having fun cheer me up so much and make me go on. I've lost any passion I had, I don't feel like listening to music, playing any instrument, making some music, watching football, anything I loved. I don't know really, it's awful. I'm always in a low mood, it's understandable but this's too much, damn.

I drive them to school and head to a Starbucks near the hospital to buy Hayley her favourite breakfast, chocolate milkshake with whipped cream and cake. Then I head straight to the whitey place, she's finally coming back home today. As I walk in the girl at the entrance desk gave me a sympathetic look, she knows what I'm going through.

I walk down the familiar corridor to my wife's room and I find Hayley talking with Guy and Joanne, she's radiant and delighted. I join them yelling good morning and kissing my babe handing her the breakfast which she eats with eagerness. Guy said me she slept well all the night so Jo and he took a nap, I'm glad they could rest because they're doing all this for me and my family.