Longing

Gosh, that hurt

"Ugh, why do I even have to go to school that place sucks," I said to myself as I got out of bed I tried to whisper it because I didn't want to wake them up. I don't even have any clothes left why am I even going? As I got out of my bed my foot hit the nightstand, let me tell you that hurt like a bitch.

"Ah fuck!" I yelled, oh shit they're going to kill me god I need to hurry up. I quickly rush to my so-called 'bathroom'  and started brushing my teeth well partially   I had to brush them with my finger I know disgusting. Gosh, I wonder how I managed to even live in this dump. Who am I kidding my parent have always been like this my real mom abuses me mostly verbally but still that shit hurts.

And my Stepdad is quite something. First, she manipulated him blah blah blah got him doing drugs and shit and now he beats me too. I can't help myself but feel bad for him I mean it's not like he knew. My thoughts are interrupted when I see a roach In the sink.

I took everything in my power to not scream that thing scared me badly but there's tons of them.  what's the point of being scared? I quickly try to style my hair and put on the clothes I wore at the beginning of the week. "This is disgusting," I said, feeling like crying with how gross this whole house is. Welp the outfits done, time to go feed them.

                                                                                       Outfit        

                                                                                            Hair 

I slowly walk to the kitchen just to see them already standing there waiting for their food "Boy we've been waiting for a long time where is our food." My 'mother' said. "I-Im s-sorry I w-woke up l-late,"I stated, to be honest, I didn't even know what to say. "You are a useless slut all you do is whore around and when you talk to us you started stuttering like a pathetic man now go make our food!"

While I was making their food I got distracted by thinking 'Am I really a useless slut do they hate me I mean I can't blame them I do start stuttering when I see them.' My thoughts were interrupted when I heard my mom call me from her room "DYLAN GET YOUR ASS IN HERE RIGHT NOW!" I shook I don't know what I did wrong god, I wish she will show at least some mercy

"C-Coming," I said I was going to yell it but that would've made it worse. When I arrived at her room I immediately put my head down she said I didn't deserve to keep my head up like her. "So the school called me and told me that they were concerned for you because you had bruises all over your body." She slurred gosh I could barely understand her  "O-Ok?"I didn't know how to respond to that It's not like it was my fault. "You will be switching schools and you will start today so I don't know how you will find your way there because I am most certainly not taking your slutty self inside my car."She said gosh that hurt my own mother doesn't even want me in the same car as her.

"M-Maybe I can take the B-bus.? I suggested, "OK now get out I want to have my food now slut." my mother said it sounded like she was running out of patience. I think to myself 'OK so the bus will be here in about 5 to 7 minutes so that doesn't give me a lot of time to make food for Dad' Maybe he will just forget. I quickly flip my 'moms' eggs and toast and got started on her oatmeal.

It's been a few minutes and the eggs are done, and the toast is done. Now is just time to wait for the bus 'Gosh what should I say, what if they don't like me? What the hell am I doing of course they will like me I'm going to be the bad boy of the school I will be popular and everyone will like me.' "Hey, I got this." oops I accidentally said that aloud that's embarrassing. 

"BOY STOP MESSING AROUND YOU DUMB FUCK THE BUS IS ALREADY HERE  BUT YOU DIDN'T KNOW BECAUSE YOU WERE TOO BUSY BEING A BITCH GET OUT OF MY HOUSE." My mom yelled "O-ok." I quickly grab my backpack and search for my lunch money oh great they probably spent it on weed. I sighed "Bye". No reply I walk out of the house and looked and the bus in front of my house. I started walking towards it.

Time to put on the bad boy facade.

So guys how did you like it I thought it was fine and for this chapter, I wrote like 863 words Im proud yay!!! Love you guys bye  💓 😍