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#au; not real! Just made up.

(Angst/ no happy ending?/ joongdok/ jonghwa)

      Authors notes at the end.

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Kim Dokja's POV

" 𝘒𝘪𝘮 𝘋𝘰𝘬𝘫𝘢. 𝘐𝘧 𝘸𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥, 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦, 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘢𝘱𝘰𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘺𝘱𝘴𝘦. 𝘊𝘢𝘯 𝘸𝘦 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦'𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰?" 𝘈𝘴𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘮.

   𝘈𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘠𝘰𝘰 𝘑𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘬.

  𝘚𝘦𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘶𝘱𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘶𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘴, 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘳𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦, 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘴 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴, 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴, 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘱𝘪𝘥𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴𝘰𝘮e 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘱 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘴 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯.

𝘊𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘥.

"𝘐𝘧 𝘴𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯, 𝘠𝘰𝘰 𝘑𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘬, 𝘞𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯?" 𝘐 𝘢𝘴𝘬𝘦𝘥, 𝘧𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘴, 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘯.

"𝘒𝘪𝘮 𝘥𝘰𝘬𝘫𝘢..."

  𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥, 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘦𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘭𝘺 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦, 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭.

  "𝘐- 𝘐'𝘮 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘫𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨"

𝘚𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘱𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘶𝘱, 𝘈𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘵, 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘴.

"𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭. 𝘈𝘭𝘴𝘰, 𝘑𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘺." 𝘠𝘰𝘰 𝘑𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘬 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵, 𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘺𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴.

  "𝘉𝘶𝘵, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘺. 𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘯𝘰𝘵? 𝘗𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦, 𝘸𝘦'𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦"
                                   ...
                              "𝘏𝘈𝘏?!"

Curse.

  It was such a curse to be able to remember my past life.

  Some might say it's a blessing, but for me? No.

"-kja.."

   Never in I'm life, have I liked my past life.

"-im Dokja..."

   Does the world have something against me? Does the world like it when I su—

"KIM DOKJA!!"

  Snapping out of my thoughts, only to be greeted by an angry sunfish bastard.

  "What is it? Why did you scream at me?" I asked, confused, and surprised by the sudden actions.

  "I've been asking you if you're finished with your part of the project?" The taller man Infront of me stated, as he looked annoyed, furrowing his eyebrows. Judging me. Typical Yoo Joonghyuk.

  "Oh... Yes, almost finished."

Right.. collage..

   "Kindly pay attention next time. Lessen slacking off, staring unto nothing. And send me the project after your done." He repreminded me, showing how his displeased by my actions.

   "Yes, ah sorr—"

“Excuse me”

     I was cut off by a soft, somewhat low female voice, sounding like an angel. A voice that I oh so recognize. Seolhwa-sii.

    "I'm sorry if I intrude, or interrupted the two of you," she softly said, with a hint of worried in her  voice. Standing, looking down at us, as a small pigment of red crept up on her face.

    "No, don't worry Seolhwa-sii, you didn't interfere on anything. I'm guessing your here to pick up Yoo Jonghyuk?" I asked, feeling somewhat bitter.

      
    "It's fine Jonghyuk-ah, I'll stay here and finish my part. You can go have your date with Seolhwa-sii." I insisted, wiggling my eyebrows abit, teasing them.

    "Dokja, Kim Dokja..." Glared at me, an angry—annoyed Yoo Joonghyuk.
   
     Also a semi-flustered Lee Seolhwa looking away from my my direction.

      I sat on the library stool, with my hands on the table fingered pressed, softly laying on my laptop keyboard. As I watched a lovely fingure of two slowly fade away from my sight.

     He made a promise to Marry me, only for it to be broken by himself.

      How I was so dumb. It has started like this, with Yoo Jonghyuk getting married to Lee Seolhwa, having one son. It had always been them from the start.

      It starts how it ends.

      Maybe in another world Yoo Jonghyuk, maybe in another time.

      As events from the past flicker in my mind.
     
      “Was I beings stupid? Was I being selfish for wanting to go back to the past, in where, Yoo Jonghyuk was doing everything to save me? In where he was once mine? Yes, yes I definitely was being selfish.
     
     But, but what about me?

     What... About me?..”

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A/n: From last 2022, re-edited and posted. ✓