I'm not sure why. But. I've been living the past few days. Almost. On cruise control. Like I'm not really present in my own day to day. I'm only merely existing. I haven't had any real emotions lately. I feel like a void.
I don't want to project my unfortunate negativity onto others all the time. Sure. Everyone feels down sometimes. Sure. Others have it much worse off than I do. And I fully accept that.
But I can't get past this feeling of. Emptiness? I wouldn't consider myself a secluded person. I talk with my friends every day. My day feels incomplete if I at least don't get to say hi to them.
Sometimes I just wish I could truly feel what it would be like to not have to worry about anything anymore. No bills. No job. Just nothing. Just to sit. Up on a cloud. Or a mountain top. And just do. Nothing. Only exsist. Be able to completely shut everything off and just. Breathe.
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A Downward Spiral
PoetryA series of writings from my head that you can probably relate to. I promise I'm okay...... maybe not....
