A Downward Spiral

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Its warm. Everything around me is warm. The life in me is warm. The ground beneath me is warm. Warm. It's all warm. Its wet. Why is it wet?
The wet it warm. It feels good to be warm again. I like this warm feeling. It makes me feel alive...
  Everything is fading. Fading. Fading vision. Fading thoughts. Fading movements. All of it. Fading. I leave this for you in good hopes that you can finally find peace in yourself, and do what's right for you. For me, my soul is lost. Floating aimlessly amongst the millions of other souls who have lost their way. Maybe one day it will be rescued.
  To the ones I valued and cherished. Good luck. I hope that someone comes to you and can be the sunlight in your days that make you smile. Good luck. Luck. Good. Good luck.
  Where is your god when you need him. "Jesus loves all of his children, but he didnt stop the man from killing them in Parkland" Where was he when I asked him to bring my dad back? I was 11. What kind of god punishes an 11 year old by taking his dad? Where is your god? Where? Where?