I find myself in an interesting time in my life. I haven't been in any sort of relationship for almost 4 years now. I often wonder if it's me. Is it how I am? Is it my personality? It's not an overpowering thought, but I find myself thinking about it more often.
I'd like to try my hand at a relationship again, but I feel as though I have a fear of it not working. The pain of breaking up with someone I love doesn't seem worth the time. It's hard to find someone to match with. My friends are finding relationships, AND I AM DAMN PROUD OF THEM FOR IT! They've gone out and found someone they can rock with, and I'm genuinely over joyed for them.
But I sit and wonder, when will my time come? I still have a lot of work to do on myself before I try and burden someone else with my flaws.
I don't know.
Maybe I'll commit to the cool uncle role for good. No one in my town seems real interesting. They all have the same personality. And it just isn't interesting. It's dull.
I guess I just miss feeling..... wanted?
I'm terrible conveying my emotions properly.
Anywhere, this is getting long so, I'll be back in another year or so to post again, I guess.
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A Downward Spiral
PoetryA series of writings from my head that you can probably relate to. I promise I'm okay...... maybe not....
