Del Rico Triplets #2: Retracing The Steps

The third

"You cannot really love me, huh?" I sarcastically said.

I did everything he wants me to do. I turned myself into his type of women so he could look at me the way I want to pero tangina! Hindi pala talaga napipilit ang pag-ibig.

"I'm going now, Av. Rolly's in the hospital." His voice is raspy and intimidating like he is. Pero bakit kapag kausap niya si Rolly... masuyo iyon?

Ibinagsak ko ang kamay ko sa lamesa niya.

"Ang sabi mo sirain ko lang silang dalawa ng kapatid mo at mapapasaakin ka?" nanunumbat ang boses ko at garalgal pa dahil sa muling napipintong pag-iyak.

Tinapunan niya ako nang malamig na tingin at tumatagos iyon sa puso kong puno na yata ng bitak.

"You can have me anytime you want, Av," he calmly said.

Para akong nahihintakutan nang tignan siya. Have him anytime? While he's with Rolly and trying to earn her? Really?

"What?! So you will pursue her and then be with me if I ask you to? Gagawin mo akong kabit at lolokohin mo siya sakaling maging sa iyo siya?"

Nilapitan ko siya at hinampas sa dibdib; tuluyan na akong naiyak. Dahil mas malakas siya sa akin ay nagawa niyang hulihin ang dalawa kong kamay at hinigit sa kaniya.

"Why? You're concerned about her?" There is playfulness in his voice.

Hinahapo ako nang tanungin niya iyon at lalo pang idikit ang mukha sa akin.

"You can have me while I'm pursuing her but we will end whatever this is once she make me her boyfriend."

He dismissed me and took her coat from his swivel chair. Natigilan ako roon at dinamdam ang sakit ng sinabi niya. Hindi ba't ganoon din iyon? Kabit pa rin iyon! Kabit pa rin kahit saan tignan! Nakikihati sa hindi sa iyo! Aasa kung balang araw ikaw ba ang pipiliin at matatakot araw-araw habang naiisip na hindi mangyayari iyon!

"G-gagawin mo akong kabit?" usal ko.

My mother is like that before she could even have her own family. Sinasabi niya bang... ganoon lang din ang kahihinatnan ko?

Makikihati na naman ako sa iba? Ganoon ba? Nakikihati na nga ako sa atensyon ng parehong magulang ko, miski ba sa kaniya? Parang gripo ang luha ko at sira ang seradura kaya ayaw huminto noon sa pag-agos.

Wala ng emosyon sa mukha niya. Ibang-iba sa akin na lugmok na lugmok sa harap niya.

"If you can't take it, then leave. You've used my body fair enough for your gain, Aviya."

"That's unfair!" I shouted at him!

He knows I love him. He knows I want him for me that's why I did all of those things to make him mine! How could he do this?

"B-bakit ba hindi mo ako magawang mahalin! Ako ang narito! Ako ang mayroon ka sa lahat ng pinagdaanan mo and yet... kayang-kaya mo akong iwan para sa kaniya."

Mas nakaramdam ako ng sakit nang unti-unting nabago ang emosyon sa mga mata niya. Nanghihingi ng pasensya iyon at pang-unawa.

He held my hand gently brushed it like what he always used to do.

"You know I didn't ask you to stay with me, Avaya. Hindi ko hiniling na gawin mo ang lahat ng iyon para sa akin." Marahan na marahan ang pagkakasabi niya noon.

Hinaplos niya ang pisngi kong napupuno ng luha gamit ang isa niyang kamay.

"Rolly is my priority now. She's pregnant, she needs me. You're fine alone, right?"

He left a peck of kiss on the bridge of my nose before turning his back on a devastated me. I cried alone in his office for too long that when I opened the door, a lonely sunrise welcomed me.

I am holding on to my stomach where I'm bearing his child. I wanted to tell him that I'm pregnant too and I need him to take care of me and our babies but that is another way to jail him in my arms.

Hindi kailanman natuturuan ang pusong magmahal pero siguro... natuturuan naman itong lumimot at maging manhid. At iyon ang gagawin ko sa aking tahimik na pag-alis.

You will never see me hover around you again, Del Rico. You will never see me crawl towards you because I will let myself find a love that needs no begging from me. I will find a love that will always choose me over anything else and that's not you.

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