Hiraeth || 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍

010

Now it was my turn to smile. "Thank you. You know I do too." But now he looked at me serious. My smile faded. What was wrong?

"No, not this way. I love you for real. Like a boyfriend loves his girlfriend. I'm falling for you. Since forever. You don't know how much I missed you. I've never met someone like you and just because of my damn jealousy I almost lost you."

Shocked, I looked at him. I wasn't able to say anything. Then I finally spoke. "But how...how do you know about me and Jungkook? I mean I didn't tell you and we just came together the day you started hating me.."

He looked down. "I saw you both kissing in the restaurant.. but that doesn't matter right now. I know I shouldn't feel anything for you and I definitely do not deserve you, I just wanted to tell..."

Now I was the one looking down. I thought a bit, what should I answer? After all, I felt the same, but I already got a boyfriend.

"You don't need to say anything, don't worry...just forget what I just said..." I looked him into the eyes. "It's not that I'm embarrassed or something...and I definitely won't forget what you've said. I like you too, Jimin. We just can't be together...you know I'm with Jungkook, I can't hurt him like that...I'm so sorry."

He opened his eyes widely. "W-what..?!" I nodded slowly. "You heard me right. I like you too...it just wouldn't work between us. I know you know that." He nodded slowly.

"I think you're right...I don't want to make anything between us uncomfortable or something. Can please everything stay as it was before? Nothing should change. I just have the feeling it will get awkward...you know what? Let's just forget this conversation."

I thought a bit. "No, it won't get weird or something. Our friendship will not change. Please just do not forget this here. I...this is a bit too much to just forget."

He smiled. "How can you say this so easily? I mean after all, we just confessed...and you have a boyfriend...I uhm I don't know it's just...I like that you don't make it even more difficult...I expected you to be uh...mad?"

I looked at him confused. "Why in the world would I be angry? I mean you can do nothing about it. It's not like you wished for this to happen." He nodded. "Thank you. Now do you want to finish our series?" I agreed happily and after we lay down, we turned on the TV.

The next morning Jimin was lying next to me. But could you actually call it "next to me"? He was so close and had his arm around me. I could barely move, but I got to get up without waking him up.

That was what I thought - after I took a shower, I saw Jimin already full styled waiting for me. "Jimin! I'm only wearing a towel!" He giggled but continued staring at me. "Park Jimin!" He began to come closer. "P-park Jimin..!" But my calls didn't stop him in any way.

He came closer and closer, till he grabbed both my arms. Now I was standing right in front of him. I could feel his hot breath and I began to blush. "J-Jimin...that's a bit too close, don't you think..?" But he didn't react.

Only after a little time had passed, he began to speak. No, he began to breath something into my ear. "I can't stand it anymore. I want you." I opened my eyes widely, but I wasn't able to say anything anymore. My voice was just gone.

And then he kissed me.