Hiraeth || 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍

008

Fuck. Was everything I thought. Fuck fuck fuck. I had forgotten the cinema with my boyfriend and I had the biggest fight with my best friend.

"Hey, it's really totally okay, don't worry." Jungkook said for like the hundredth time. "But I still feel guilty, I shouldn't have forgotten my own boyfriend. I'm so sorry! Really!"

"Don't be. Hey, you don't need to be sorry for anything. But it looks like you cried. What happened?" I took a big breath.

"I got into a fight with Jimin...but it's not important, really." He looked at me carefully. "You're not happy about it, I can see that. Everything is important for me, what's important for you. So about what was the fight?"

I just hugged him and began to cry again. He hugged me back and tried to calm me down. "Hey...sshhh...everything's gonna be okay...trust me..." I wish I could, but I wasn't sure if it would be alright between me and Jimin ever again. I couldn't loose him. He was my everything.

After a few minutes, we sat down at Jungkook's couch. "And now tell me what exactly happened." I thought for a while.

"Fine...I'm just so scared to loose him...He was so different, he came home today late and was drunk. I was worried to death and today he just treated me like shit and always talked about you and how I just should go to you and spend my time with you so that I leave him alone. And that his life is none of my business."

Jungkook looked at me with his warm and kind eyes. They were filled with love. "Oh I know that feeling he has. Your friend is jealous. Jealous of me." My eyes opened widely. I wouldn't have even thought about this.

"But...but why would he be jealous of you? There is no reason..." Jungkook looked down, he clearly didn't want to tell me this.

"He got the biggest crush on you, he hates seeing you with me." I stopped to breath out of shock. "W-what?! No, that's not true! He got a girlfriend and we're only friends! He could never fall for me!"

Jungkook's look was still on the floor. "But he did. If you like it or not. There is no other way. He likes you and that's it, we can do nothing about it."

"And even if it's true, he doesn't have to pretend I'm a peace of shit. Why would he hate me and not you? He shouldn't treat me like this, if he likes me."

"You should talk to him. If he really loves you, he accepts that we are together, he shouldn't give up your friendship because of something like this." I knew Jungkook was right, but I was a bit scared.

"And what if he doesn't want to talk?" "Then he doesn't deserve you. You're much more worth than that treatment." Now I got even more scared.

"But I don't want to loose him.." "I believe in you. I'm sure you can do this. Just trust me and yourself." I smiled.

"Thank you so much." With those words, I gave him a kiss on the cheek and told him I'd talk with Jimin now.

But he wasn't at home. Again. I called him but there was no answer. So I wrote him a message. "Come home and talk with me if you want to keep this friendship."

But he didn't come. I stayed up late again, then I went home. I couldn't sleep another night in the house of someone who hurt me this much. I loved him, but he seemed to hate me.

Fuck, I loved him too much.