Hiraeth || 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍

019

"J-Jimin is what?! You're joking...right?" I was crying. Crying so much and my mother did the same.

"He has been into an car accident and the doctors say there isn't even a tiny chance that he's going to make this. It was in the news..."

"N-no, you're kidding, you have to be kidding!" I had never, in my whole damn life cried so fucking much. Never.

"I wish..."

"Where is he right now? In which hospital is my fiancé?" I was screaming at my mother. I expected her to say something like "calm down" but she knew this weren't the right words right now.

She immediately told me the address and I didn't care about being in my Pyjamas and rushed to the hospital she named.

The people who worked there seemed to know who I was and told me to wait in the waiting room.

"He's not able to receive visitors right now, I'm sorry. We'll inform you, if you can see him, but it's gonna take some time, so you should go home and get some sleep." A lady explained.

"No, I'm going to stay and I don't give a fuck how long this will take. But can I ask you a question?" "Sure. What is it?"

"Is there even a little chance that he will make it..?" I asked with a little piece of hope. This hope disappeared the moment I saw the sad look on her face.

"We're trying our best..." was the only thing she answered, then she got back to work again.

Now nothing could stop me from bursting into tears in the hospital anymore. I may had lost my fiancé, the person I loved most my whole life long.

"N-not my Jimin..." I whispered. The next thing I noticed was that I was lying in a hospital bed. "Where am I? What happened?"

A nurse entered the room. "Oh, you are awake! You had a break down and passed out, i think you are a bit stressed right now, you should rest a little more."

I looked at her with big eyes. Then I realized something. "Can I go to him? Is he okay?" He looked at me confused.

"Oh, are you talking about Mr. Park? You still can't go see him, I'm sorry. He is in a coma right now, we'll try our best to save him."

"How high is the chance that he will make it?" She didn't answer for a while and looked down. "We will try our best to save him." With those words she bowed and left the room.

Leaving me behind with a really bad feeling. I couldn't express how I felt, there was nothing anymore. I couldn't feel anything but pain.

The doctors let me sleep in the hospital for a week because of all the strike and my loss. They noticed that it would not be good if I were alone now. I was glad, like that I could be in his near all the time.

The next day I finally was allowed to visit im him. The moment the nurses told me, I rushed into his room and found him covered with bandages and connected to many devices in a coma.

Seeing him like this broke my heart again. I wasn't sure if this man, the man of my dreams, my fiancé Park Jimin would survive and if he wouldn't, I would loose everything.

For hours I was just sitting there, holding his hand and crying. I didn't know how long I had been there but at some point a nurse came in and told me to leave the room.

I didn't want to but I knew I had to, so I did what she wanted and just cried myself to sleep. I didn't know if I could ever be happy again.

Why did I have to loose everything?