Hiraeth || 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍

020

"N-no, I won't go! No, he has to survive! You can't let him die, no!" I was screaming and crying at the doctors while they escorted me outside.

"Listen, we know that you are sad, but we can't do anything anymore. Please leave this hospital now."

I couldn't do anything anymore. He was gone, I was alone. The next days, weeks and even months I barely ate or slept and just lived my life with depression.

Sometimes I thought about ending it too, so I could meet him somewhere again. I had nothing what would hold me on this world anymore.

And so I made a decision. The last decision of my whole life. I went to some high building and got to the top.

I was sure i wanted to do that, wasn't I? Suddenly it all felt really high and wrong. But I didn't need to care about that, did I? I had nothing anymore, so why should I stay? There was no need for me to be on this world anymore.

Jimin was everything I had and now he was gone. Gone forever and nothing could bring him back ever again. But I could come to him and that was what I wanted to do now.

"Y/n, you can do this. You will finally get to Jimin again, just jump." It was harder than I thought, even tho I didn't have anything left anymore.

I looked down with my fear of heights. Under me were a few people walking, some couples, most of them seemed happy but then one person caught my attention.

It was a guy who seemed to be my age, looking sad. In the middle of all those happy people, he was the only sad one. And then I saw him going to this bridge. Like me, he seemed to not have anything left anymore, but suddenly I had this feeling to stop him.

I ran as fast as I never did in my whole life. I ran to this guy, this guy who was empty, empty like me.

And I made it. I made it in time, i reached him before he had the chance to jump.

"Stop!"

I screamed and he turned around. His face didn't have any emotion in it. "Stop..." he looked me straight into the eyes and I had this feeling, this feeling to do whatever it needed to stop him from doing this.

"I saw you on the building...why would you come and stop me if you had the same thoughts?" He asked after a while.

"Why I would do this? I don't know. But I do know, that you deserve to live, there will always be-" "No. Just leave me alone. You should know how I feel, so you know you can't stop me."

And without another thought I just hugged the stranger. "I think you- no we both needed this...and no tell me those problems this fucking world has. You aren't alone anymore, I am not alone anymore."

We hugged a while, but his face was still empty. Empty with one tear rolling down his cheek.

"You can't stop me. This world is fucked up and I won't spend another minute on it. No matter who you are, there's nothing what would keep me on this place, so I made my decision."

I started to cry too. "Fuck my best friend and fiancé I knew my whole life died a while ago and I don't have anything anymore now too. But this isn't the right thing. He wouldn't have liked me to jump, whoever you lost wouldn't have wanted you to do that too. So please talk to me."

Now he hugged me again and after that looked me into the eyes with a sad look.

"Thank you."