Hiraeth || 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍

004

"You do what?!" "I love you. As my best friend, how could I not?" "I love you too. Sorry I got it wrong.."

I couldn't stop thinking about those words. He had never said it in the past, but now he was so sweet. What had changed him? And why did I have this...feeling in my stomach? All this was so new and confusing for me. I didn't know what I should do about it, but I wanted to know what it was. Real bad.

"Did you think I have a crush on you?" He laughed. "No, it just sounded like you do. I though you may made a joke about it. Do you know what I mean?" "Oh, yes. It would be so weird having a crush on each other, wouldn't it? I mean imagine.." he laughed hardly and I joined him.

"This would be so stupid. Whatever, wanna go shopping?" "No! I won't go for four hours in every single shop in the city just that you can buy one single lipgloss. No thanks."

"Hey, that's not true...okay it is true, but...okay whatever let's just go over to your place and watch some movies." He agreed and we went to his house.

"Hello, Y/n. Nice to see you again." Mrs. Park greeted me. "Hello, I'm glad that I can be here, thank you." She smiled and me and my best friend went upstairs to his room.

"What do you want to watch? I'm open for everything. Except for some boring documentaries." "I don't care either. What about the greatest love? It came out this year." "The greatest love? That sounds so boring. Let's watch it!"

And so we did. It was fun watching it and while we were cuddling I noticed this feeling again. What the hell was it? I still didn't find out and I hated not knowing this feeling.

"Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Jimin asked suddenly. "What?! Why would you think that, I love cuddling with you." He smiled and continued watching.

We always cuddled, why would he randomly think I didn't like it? That was new for me. Did he feel uncomfortable?! I hoped it wasn't like that for him. I loved spending time with Jimin and I wished he felt the same. He was my best friend, the person who was most important for me in my whole life.

"Aren't you tired? We watched for 10 hours and there are still 6 episodes. Do you want to sleep now and continue tomorrow?" He asked. Why was he so caring suddenly? I liked this new self of him but it was a bit awkward.

"I'm not tired, but if you are, we can sleep now." "Oh nah, it's fine. Thanks for caring anyways." We watched another two hours till we went to get some sleep. Like always I got into his bed and he lay down next to me.

But this time it felt different. I could feel his hands and i got nervous. What was this, why was i so nervous, it was my best friend, we slept next to each other for more than 14 years, it wasn't new. But still, it felt different.

Why couldn't I just feel normal, I didn't think like I thought a week ago, something had changed extremely. But what?

I decided to close my eyes and get some sleep and I really made it to sleep. I was glad, since I was really tired before. But this wonderful sleep didn't last long, I woke up three hours later.

And then I knew it. I knew why I felt like that with him. I knew why I was so nervous. Everything made sense now.

I was in love with Jimin.