Hiraeth || 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍

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Now I felt even worse for kissing Jimin earlier. Why would he make something that beautiful just for me? After we ate, we listened to music and tried to dance a bit. It was really fun with him.

"Thank you for this. This was my biggest dream and you just made it become real." He smiled warmly. "I want to make every dream of you become true. To be honest, your friend Jimin told me that you like this kind of date." I thanked him, but I couldn't get my best friend out of my head.

Jimin had told him? I thought he hated Jungkook and now...now he made my life perfect. He made everything for me to become happy with Jungkook. I really appreciated that. This was really the best side of him.

We decided to talk a bit about how life was going and I found out, that Jungkook was really good in anything you could imagine. Singing, taekwondo, writing, cooking and much more. How could this dream like someone normal like me?

"I got something what I'm asking myself since a very long time. Can I ask you this question too?" He asked after a while. "Of course, what is it?" "Do you think cheating would ever in any case be okay?"

I froze. Why would he ask this? Why on this day? Now I felt even more guilty. He didn't deserve getting cheated on, I knew this. "Why? Did you cheat on me?" He shook his head. "I could never. I'm just interested what your opinion to this is."

"Of course cheating isn't right. But imagine you like two people. You're really in love with them. One of them is your boyfriend, the other one is someone you're close with. And suddenly the person you're close with confesses his feelings to you. You don't know what you should do, since you love both the same. You could never hurt the person you're close with, but you don't want to cheat either. And then without anything the person you're close with kisses you and you don't say stop or anything. You just want to emjoy the moment. You know this would never happen again, it was something like a goodbye. Would this be wrong and cruel in your opinion?"

He looked at me in thoughts. "I would say it's still cheating, but it's not cruel. It can hurt the boyfriend really bad, but it can be forgiven. If the boyfriend really loves the girl, he will understand this. He will accept it and if it won't repeat ever again, he should stay with her.

She did a mistake, but I understand her. She was scared to loose one of them, so she didn't stop him from kissing her. But she should tell him this. It's better than him finding out on his own. This could hurt even more."

"Would you forgive her?" I asked after a while. "You only said what he should do, not what you think about it." He looked at me with his warm eyes.

"Yes, I forgive you. I know what you did and if it happens never again, I think I can understand you. You love Jimin and I know that. But how you look at me, I still feel loved. I know that you feel guilty, I know that you didn't want to go so far. I hope you understand that I'm hurt, but this won't change anything between us. I won't leave you. I love you too much for that."

I stared at him and began to cry. Began to cry because how beautiful he said that.