The Way I Loved You || manjiro sano - yandere au

chapter twenty one

YOU WOKE UP to the distinct smell of something burning. You hurriedly leapt out of bed, fearing for the worst. The thick smell of smoke was close and heavy, similar to the paper being burnt in an enclosed space.

You looked around your room with your tired eyes only to find Mikey situated at your desk, holding up a neatly folded letter above a lighter.

He was letting the letter burn deliberately, eyes heavily amused by how the orange hues of the flame slowly consumed what was left of the paper and left a trail of ash beneath it.

In your tired state, you didn't realize right away that the paper he was holding was Baji's letter addressed to you right away. It was the last thing he left before he passed away and you saw it dissipate into a pile of black ash right before your eyes. 

You kicked the covers off of your body and ran towards where Mikey was situated, slapping the lighter off his hands and sending it flying to the corner. "What the fuck do you think you're doing, Mikey?!"

You raised your voice at him, both distraught and angered by what you had witnessed. Now standing next to him, you could see that he not only burned Baji's letter but several photographed pictures of your family and friends.

Most of them were unrecognizable because of the damage done by the fire but at least you were able to retrieve a few.

You feel your heart grow heavy at the bewildering situation you witnessed at such an early hour. Especially when Mikey appeared so indifferent about it. You turned to Mikey, grabbing him by the shoulder and forcing him to look at you. 

All the memories were so quickly erased by the fire. In your distress, Mikey appeared incredibly calm as though he shares no guilt whatsoever for the damage he has yet to explain.

"Why?? Why did you burn my things?! Most especially Keisuke's letter! That was the only thing he left for me and you burned it!?" Blinded by rage, you couldn't think clearly or even see the way Mikey is staring blankly at the burnt pictures without a hint of remorse.

"What came into your mind for you to---'' You were suddenly pinned over your desk, your back harshly landing on the wooden frame as your things scattered with the fallen ashes.

Your eyes were closed due to the impact and you could feel Mikey's warm breath press against the side of your neck as he holds your body down. 

He tightens his grip on your wrists when he feels you attempt to resist. He used his body to trap you under him, rendering you unable to escape. Another reminder of how he can easily overpower you if he wanted to.

With half-lidded eyes, you stare at Mikey's face. He pressed his face closer to your skin, maintaining his silence. His eyes are closed and his breathing is still. His warm breath tickles your sensitive skin.

"Is it..."

His voice is barely a whisper but you can hear it due to his proximity. You could point out the disheartened waver in his voice as he continued.

"Is it so hard to forget about everyone? Are you... planning something? Is that why you've been involved with Izana? Are you lying to me?"

"Mikey listen to me that's not what happened-"

"Don't fucking make excuses (name)!" He interrupted you. "I read the letter. It's all so clear now. How you've been acting so distant and odd."

He continued, "It's not because you didn't want me to worry, it's because you're planning on leaving me. I can't believe it." He laughed out loud, struggling to grasp the situation.

Mikey slammed your wrists on the table, earning a loud cry of pain from you as he binds you tighter than before. "SHUT UP!"

 ''You're going to listen to me for once. It's always been about you, isn't it? but this time I'm getting what I want." Mikey lets go of your wrists and pushed you to the bed, where you feel the impact of the mattress.