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Jisung was bored, as usual, they had gotten about halfway through a movie and his attention span just couldn't handle it anymore.

For some reason he was overthinking a lot worse than usual. It used to be a very bad issue but he had learned to manage it better over the past few years.

It was such dumb things he was thinking that he almost felt guilty. Wondering why he wasn't in the middle like he usually was, why Changbin hadn't even bothered to touch his hand, why Chan didn't seem to even notice that Jisung had managed to inch away to the other side of the couch. He only did so to see if either of them would say something but they didn't. And Jisung was desperately craving attention.

What he didn't know was that Changbin was blanking out so badly throughout the movie that Chan thought something was wrong, that he was going to get in a slump again.

However, in reality, he was just tired. Bored, thinking of possibilities of what could happen when Jisung did eventually decide to turn off the tv.

"Finally," Changbin said with a sigh, being broken out of his daze.

"Did I really choose that bad of a movie?" Chan asked with a small pout.

"All movies are boring," Jisung quickly responded.

"I just look forward to whatever will happen when Jisung eventually turns it off," Changbin shook his head.

Chan was a bit surprised by how okay Changbin seemed after being spaced out for so long. He gave him a small thumbs up, as in a silent way of asking him if he was okay. Changbin simply nodded, showing him a small smile.

"I'm gonna take a shower real quick. You two can think of something and tell me when i get out," Chan explained, standing up and quickly kissing his boyfriends before leaving the room.

"Why we're you sitting all the way over there?" Changbin asked, holding out his arms, signaling for Jisung to come closer.

"Being petty," he replied, quickly accepting the hug and pushing Changbin onto the couch in. the process. Jisung was now laying on top of him but Changbin had no complaints about it as he gently rubbed his back.

"What do you mean?"

"I thought something was wrong but everything seems fine now."

"Hmm," Changbin hummed in response, "I was just bored out of my mind."

"Me too."

"Hey..."

"Hi?" Jisung responded back, confused.

"Can I tell you something? It feels wrong for you to not know. I should have told you before you even agreed to start dating me but I got to excited and happy that I stopped thinking straight."

"Nothing would have made me change my mind about anything but yeah, of course you can tell me," Jisung responded, moving so that he could see Changbin's face.

"I would prefer for you to stay like this," the older said, pushing Jisung's head back onto his chest. It's was always a topic that put him on edge, especially the thought of talking to Jisung about it but for some reason, now felt like the right time. Perhaps he should wait for Chan to get out of the shower but sometimes the way Chan looked at him with eyes full of pity didn't help his nerves at all.

"I have depression," Changbin started with a small sigh after a few minutes of silence after coming to the quick realization that there was no way to sugar coat it.

"Why would that have changed anything Binnie?"

"Because it's really bad sometimes. I take medication already but I still get into these...moods where I don't feel like talking to anyone and all I wanna do is rot in bed for weeks at a time. It haven't happened super badly yet but I don't want you to blame yourself or be confused when it does."

"If it does," Jisung corrected quietly, "anticipating it will only make it feel worse. And thank you for telling me, I'm glad you felt comfortable enough too."

Changbin hesitated, wondering why Jisung said that, how he would know but if Jisung wanted to say more about it then he would have. Jisung waited until Changbin was comfortable enough to open up to him. So he would wait as long as he needed to for Jisung to fully open up to him and Chan.

They all had pretty different pasts. Some moments and things more bad then others. But maybe meeting each other was what needed to happen in order for all of those things to make sense. For it to hurt less, and all be forgotten.

"What do you guys wanna do?" Chan asked, finally returning to the living room and kissing both of his boyfriends on their heads.

"Not watch a movie."

"Cuddle," Jisung replied.

"Cuddle?" Chan repeated, laying on top of Jisung who was already laying on Changbin.

"Chan!" the shortest yelled, struggling to breathe.

"Not like this!" Jisung yelled, none stop laughing.

"You sure?" Chan asked, not moving an inch.

"I can't Breathe!"

Chan laughed, finally rolling off of the two.