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"What happened?" Felix asked as soon as Jisung walked into their apartment. He knew something was wrong just from looking at it and the way Jisung started sobbing as soon as he asked confirmed it.

Felix put his phone down and hugged his friend who basically leaped into his arms.

"Sungie," Felix said with a small sigh, rubbing his back. He wasn't going to ask any more questions as he could tell Jisung wasn't going to be able to answer them coherently. So he rubbed his back and placed soft kisses on his head until he eventually calmed down.

"Am I unattractive?" Jisung finally asked quietly.

"Why would you ask that? You're one of the prettiest people I've ever met in my life. You have a cute face, pretty eyes, perfect waist, and adorable personality," he explained, hoping that it would cheer him up a little bit.

"I think Chan and Changbin like each other more than they like me," He explained with a small sigh.

"I don't think that's true Sung, they've known each other for a lot longer, they might just be a little more comfortable around each other. You haven't been dating them for that long, you'll get there soon, I promise."

"But I thought that we were supposed to do stuff all together and apparently they don't."

"What exactly happened?" Felix asked curiously.

"They were about to have sex but I walked in on them and they stopped."

"Do they know that you've never...?"

"Yeah but that doesn't mean that I don't want to."

"They don't know that though, you haven't told them. I think they just don't want to pressure you into anything you aren't ready for," Felix explained and laid on the couch, pulling Jisung with him so that they were facing each other. "And if you are all dating, if it's ever just two of you and not all three i think you guys should still be able to do whatever but that's up to you three. Just talk to them about it."

"It's so complicated," Jisung pouted, referring to their relationship.

"Yeah but once you get past all the rough stuff I think that it will be worth it."

"I think I just need some time to think about what I need to talk to them about."

"And that's perfectly fine Sungie, take as much time as you need."

Which would and should be true, however it's a different situation when one of the people has clinical anxiety and depression.

"Can we watch something?" Jisung asked, wanting to take his mind off of it.

"Of course."

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Chan and Changbin however, couldn't take their minds off of it. Especially not Changbin.

He had been lying in the same spot on Chan's bed since Jisung had left and his breathing kept getting faster. He was trying to think of anything else just to prevent himself from having an anxiety attack but he was so scared that they lost Jisung and he was the reason why.

He had finally found people who eased his mind, made him happy, prevented his slumps from happening as often as they used to, he finally felt content and calm but of course he had to do something to throw everything off balance.

He knew something like this was bound to happen, he was aware that everything seemed too good to be true but he tried telling himself that it was all just in his head.

"Changbin, calm down, it's gonna be okay, we can talk to him about it tomorrow, he just needs a little bit of time first," Chan tried to explain but Changbin started hyperventilating, feeling hot tears stream down his face.

Chan tightly held onto his hand, not wanting to hug him in fear that it would make things worse. This wasn't the first time he had seen Changbin like this but he still never knew how to handle it when it did happen.

All he knew was that no matter how freaked out he might be in the moment, he had to hide it in order to be able to calm Changbin down at all.

"W-why do I-I always ru-ruin shit," Changbin choked out between sobs.

"You didn't ruin anything, everything's gonna be okay."

"Y-you guys w-would be ha-happier without me. Th-this wouldn't even be happening i-if i wasn't involved. I'm so-sorry."

Chan felt tears build up in his own eyes but he knew he couldn't cry for the sake of Changbin.

"No, we've both been so much happier since we started dating you. You're amazing, I probably wouldn't have even been able to get Jisung back in the first place if not for you. We needed you, we still do."

"No," Changbin shook his head. His mind was racing thinking about how much happier Jisung and Chan could have been before he got involved and complicated everything. It was his fault that Jisung had left crying, even if it wasn't, there was nothing that could convince him otherwise.

Chan had seen Changbin in really awful situations before but for the sake of Changbin, he really hoped that he would be able to talk to Jisung tomorrow.

He feared that if not, this could be worse than it had ever been before.