N A L A
"I-I-I was pregnant." I struggled to say "And on that night you saw me for the last time I lost the baby."
Chris released my hand that he was just holding and turned the other direction. His face held no expression but he seemed shocked nonetheless. I really didn't know how he was going to react to me finally telling him this. I wouldn't blame him for being angry. But I wasn't going to let us start over on a lie.
"H-how far along were you?" He asked
"Around 2 months." I answered
"You were pregnant with our baby, lost it, and you just now telling me Nala?"
"I was going to tell you that night I came over there." I explained "I had every intention to, but at the end of the nigh-..."
"This shit is crazy." He said cutting me off "What if I never came out here Nala, were you ever going to tell me? Or were you just going to keep that secret to yourself?"
"Chris I lost a fucking baby, you have no idea what I was going through mentally after that. I'm not trying to justify not telling you but this is the first time I've been able to say that out loud without breaking down."
"You were 2 months pregnant and ignored all my calls and avoided me right up until the last time I saw you. The moment you found out you were pregnant I should've been your first call."
"I literally found out I was pregnant a couple days before seeing you, I didn't know the whole time."
"There you are Nala!" Kari said jogging up to us "I've been looking for you. You weren't in our usual meeting place."
I completely forgot I had a session with Kari today after practice. I couldn't afford to miss this Pre-Season was literally this weekend.
"And who's this nigga?" Chris asked sizing him up
"I'm not doing this right now. " I said grabbing my bag and standing up "When you ready to talk and stop coming at me like I ended up in that situation by myself call me. Until then, leave me alone I have other shit to be worried about right now."
I walked away leaving Chris there and Kari jogging behind me to catch up. This was not the time for me to be worried about a relationship right now I already had enough on my plate.
"Sooooo." Kari said breaking the silence between us "Who was that?"
"My ex." I answered plainly
"Oh, he goes to school here?" He asked
"No."
"So what was he-..."
"Look Kari can we just get started, I rather not play 21 questions about my ex right now."
He held up his hands in surrender and grabbed some hurdles to lay out on the track. The rest of our workout together was silent except for the times that he corrected me on something.