Falling too much

Seventeen

Leah's POV
I gave Alesha a quick kiss before me and Beth left for training, she mocked me the whole car journey for it but that's just typical Beth. We sang to my playlist and after 10 minutes we pulled up outside London Colney it felt strange not walking in with Alesha but I knew she needed the move for her too continue playing football. We got out the car and made our way to the meeting room. We listen to Jonas telling us how important it was for us to win against Chelsea at the weekend. Jen turns around and says "going up against your girlfriend going to be very fun" I give a laugh. We head to the changing rooms and we get ready I now had more space since Beth does rehab after getting her ACL injury. We do training and when I get back in the changing rooms I see 2 missed calls off Keira, something must be up she rarely calls me through the day. I step outside the room and call her "is everything okay-" im cut of by her
"No it's Alesha she's not picking up"
"What do you mean" I laughed at Keira thinking she will just be asleep.
"I mean she's not picking up, Leah she's the most lightest sleeper ever something is going on"
My heart dropped "I'll go home now, stay on call with me let me quickly get Beth"
I run to rehab and me and Beth get to the car. My phone connects up to my car "Keira what do you thinks gone on" I say as im driving.
"I don't know but she always picks her phone up especially of me and Luce and she's not at training, we phoned Millie for that"
"So your telling me when I've been at training she's been doing something at home"
"Maybe we don't know yet though do we"
Beth continuously try's to call her but there's no answer, the next 10 minutes in the car feels like a marathon. We get home and Beth gets my phone from Keira. I open the door and see her body laid on the sofa, I immediately run over to her. "Alesha!"
No answer "Alesha! Wake up it's me Leah!" I shout.
Beth walks in the kitchen and shouts "shit!"
"What" tears flooded my face.
"She's had tablets the full packs gone"
"I bought them when you moved in for your knee, shit"
I call an ambulance on Beth's phone as Beth was telling Keira everything. "Hello I need an ambulance"
"What's happened" if my urgency in my voice didn't seem bad enough what I had to say was going to be worse.
"My girlfriend she's overdosed" the 4 words I thought I would never have to say, my heart broke and shattered into a million pieces. There is no definition for the way I felt, nothing I could say.
After 5 minutes the paramedics arrive Beth let's them in and they do CPR on her. Beth pulls me in for a hug, I say "call her dad he needs to know"
"I don't have his number do you"
"No I don't find her phone"
We looked for her phone before I saw it on the coffee table, I put her password in and it was open on the comment section on her post I saw the comments and I thought 'this is all my fault' I search for her dads number and I hand the phone to Beth. I watch as the paramedics talk to each other with these medical terms, my head is in my hands when the door reopens to see the sight of her dad. He had tears streaming down his face, after another 10 minutes the paramedics rushed her into the back of an ambulance I joined them in the back and Beth and her dad drove behind us in a car.
When we arrived in hospital they took her into a room me, Beth and Steve weren't allowed in. We sat in a private waiting room and cried our hearts out. I said "alessia she needs to know"
"I'll call her le" Beth said
"No I need to tell her" I say
I phone her number and say "hey less, I'm sorry" I cry and less says "hey what's up speak to me"
"I can't say this it's too hard but I have too"
"Your scaring me what's going on" I heard a slight crack in her voice.
"It's Alesha, she's overdosed"
"What, how, why, why now. Me and Ella are on our way right now" she started sobbing I could tell by her voice.
"Okay I'll see you both soon" I sobbed down the phone
"See you soon" alessia cried back
I walk back into the room, and we sit there for another 4 hours until the door opens and we see Alessia and Ella. I stand up and hug Alessia. Her mascara smudged down her cheeks and tears still crawling down. We have a long hug before I hug Ella. Ella had tears continuously falling out of her eyes. We all sit back down, a silence but not awkward. We sit in stress and anxiety waiting for a doctor or someone to tell us she would be okay. The longer the wait the hope I had started decreasing.