Amnesia

Unfixable

I was running behind Lucy.
We were running into town in Auckland City.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"Sky Tower, I want to show you something," Lucy said.
It was around Christmas time and the Sky Tower was red and green.
Sydney Boarding School was really close to Auckland City.
She grabbed my hand and we started to dodge between people in the crowd.
The adrenaline was amazing.
We were ninjas.
Is that racist because Lucy is Asian?
Anyway, we ran to the Sky Tower and we went into the elevator.
Lucy closed the door and it was only me and her.
"What are we doing?" I asked.
"You are going to see everything."
Bing.
We walked out onto the top floor and looked down on Auckland City.
All the lights.
All the people.
"It's weird to think they all are alive," Lucy said. "They each have a life. A family. Dead people they love..."
She looked to me.
"Do you have a memory you wish you could forget?" she asked me.
I thought hard about it.
"I don't think so," I said.
"I want to forget things," Lucy said. "I want to forget my parents. My grandma. My entire family. Because if we don't break, we bend. Unfixable."
The way she looked down at the city. Like she felt bad for every single person down there.
"There is no one who is still whole, every one is broken. They wish they could wake up with amnesia and forget, but it's not that easy," Lucy said.
She looked like she wasn't really talking to me anymore. Like she was reading off a board to a group.
I reached over and grabbed her hand.
"I don't want to forget you."
I placed my hands on her arms and pulled her close.
I put my forehead on hers.
"I don't want to risk forgetting you."
Then I kissed her.
She put her hands on my cheeks and she stood on her toes.
If I could have frozen time, I would had froze there.
"Thank you, Luke," Lucy said.
"Thank you, Lucy," I said.