Everlark- Family, Love and Happy Ever After

Finn

Finn's POV

''I hate my life.'' I yelled as my body gave way and I slid down to the floor, crying and hitting my head repeatedly with my hands. I was so angry with myself, all I've ever wanted to do was protect Willow and letting her go, was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. There's so many times I've nearly spilled, told her everything- but it's not safe for her to know. Not yet. Maybe not even forever. I should have let her tell me she loved me, but I couldn't face seeing her like that, and knowing that I'm the cause made it all the more worse. When I think of Willow I feel completed, the rest of the time I just feel used and dirty, angry at everything's that going on. The only person that could possibly understand this feeling was my mother.

I'll admit, crying isn't a very manly thing to do, but right now it was all that I could bring myself to achieve. I looked over to the wall which I'd just hit 20 minutes ago, there was a gaping hole in it, suddenly my hand started stinging violently. I looked down to see blood seeping from my red knuckles, but right now I didn't care. All I cared about was protecting Willow, and that's why I let her go. I just kept replaying the scene over and over in my head, but it still didn't feel real. By now she was probably cuddled up to Thomas, I just hope she was ok, nothing broke me more than thinking of her in pain.

After a while, I heard a knock at my door, and my mother came inside. When she saw the hole all she could do was gasp, before she sat down beside me, holding me like she used to when I'd ask where my dad was. Silence. ''Oh Finny.'' She sighed. Finny. She hadn't called me that for years, I supposed I'd grown out of it. ''What happened.''

''I had to let her go. I couldn't keep lying to her.'' I said as I continued crying into her chest. ''I love her.''

''Finny.'' She sighed again. ''Let me tell you something about your father.''

''Do you have to? I don't, I-I don't want you getting upset an-''

''Your father.'' She cut me off. ''He was and still is the love of my life. Happy, charming, caring and albeit, arrogant at times.'' She smirked at me. ''Remind you of anybody?'' I shook my head, laughing slightly before she continued. ''He always used to say how I crept upon him, but for you that's different. You've always loved each other, whether that be as friends, or something much deeper, that connection. It's always been there.''

''And that's why I couldn't tell her.''

''Finn, Willow loves you so much.''

''And I her.''

''Your father, well he was my world.''

''What even after everything that happened to him?''

''Even after that. Don't you see Finny? I was so infatuated by him everything else didn't matter. He cared for me in a way I could never have thought possible. And out of everything I got you.''

''But you lost him.''

''I know and it never gets easier.'' She suddenly shook her head free from the thoughts that were forming in her mind. ''And do you know why it never gets easier? Because I love him and if you love someone you don't let them go.''

''I had to.'' I admitted.

''Tell her, she'll understand. Do you really want to lose that girl? Seriously?''

My mother was right, I couldn't lose my Willow, because that's what she'd always be. Mine. No matter where we are, or who we're with. She needed to know the truth and then I could end it with Clara. Sure Clara would hate me, possibly even fulfil her promises, but if Willow knew, I could protect her. But was I ready to take that risk?