𝑼𝒏𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑩𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒔: 𝑨𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑼𝒔

Chapter XVII: Beautiful Moon

Last night was a mixture of sadness and pure bliss. I know that it will be our last meeting, last conversation, last I love you's and it still breaks my heart. But somehow, having a sense of understanding, peace, and accepting the end of our relationship helped.

Despite the pain, I understand his reasons now. And it only made me hate the mafia's life even more. I hate the fact that I got involved, I hate the fact that somehow I am the reason why he had to leave me. I hate the fact that all of this was happening right under my nose and I had no idea. But most of all, I hate that he had to sacrifice his own safety and happiness for the sake of protecting me.

Sometimes I wonder if things would have been different if I had spoken up earlier or if I had never gotten involved in the first place. But then I remind myself that dwelling on the past won't change anything. Instead, I focus on being grateful for the lessons learned and the people in my life who love and support me, no matter what.

That sweet and intimate moment Kye and I shared together still lingered on my mind. Oh how I missed his touch and his voice whispering on mine. The disappointment in from both of us when we knew we have to stop only made my hatred worsen. If only we couldn't lived in different situation, maybe, just maybe we're more happier. I sighed at my thoughts.

It was a few days after that night and I couldn't shake off the feeling of longing for him. I didn't want to admit it, but I wanted to see him again.

As I sat in my room, staring at the blank wall, my phone beeped. It was a message from Kye. I blinked a lot of times making sure, I was seeing right. I thought our last encounter was last night and that he won't contact me again but here he was. So I guess he didn't change his number after all. I glared at phone as I read his message.

Baby💕: "Wifey, how are you?"

I smiled at his message. It was simple, but it made me feel like he was thinking of me too.

"I'm doing fine, baby." I replied beaming in happiness.

Baby💕: "Have you seen the full moon yet?" He asked randomly.

"No, why?" I replied confused.

Baby💕: "Open your window and look for yourself." He said demandingly, so I did.

Baby💕: "The moon is beautiful, isn't it?" He said making me blush as I looked at the bright moon. I smiled.

“The moon is beautiful, isn’t it?” is a more poetic way of saying I love you in Japanese language. During Japanese novelist Natsume Soseki’s teaching years, he supposedly overheard a student translating “I love you” rather awkwardly into its literal and direct translation.

The fact that he knew that makes my heart flutter.

"I love you too." I replied happily.

Baby💕: "Goodnight my beautiful wifey!" He said before sending a photo of him smiling.

"Good night, my love." I replied.

Despite the agony, I managed to smile as I recognized that this would be his final communication to me. It was clear that he simply wished to alleviate my burden. As I closed my eyes with a joyful spirit, I beseeched God to offer us assistance and direction regardless of the challenges we may encounter.

I knew deep down that Kye and I were meant to cross paths and experience this connection. Whether or not we end up together, I was grateful for the moments we shared and the lessons that came with it.

I took a deep breath and let out a content sigh. It was time for me to focus on my personal growth and trust that the universe had my back. With a smile on my face, I wished the heavens to give me a wonderful dream about Kye and I. I then closed my eyes and let the peacefulness of the night embrace me.