𝑼𝒏𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑩𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒔: 𝑨𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑼𝒔

Chapter XXIV: Soul Mending

KRYSTAL

Throughout my entire life, I never could have imagined finding myself in this situation once again. I took deep, labored breaths as I walked into my therapist's office. It had been two weeks since my last session with her, but the memories of what had happened with Damon still haunted me. The way he stared at me with malice, how his lips touched mine, his hands moving forcefully towards my intimate area - the whole experience was horrifying. He tried to force himself on me, ignoring my constant pleas to stop. The relentless acts of rape seemed endless, leaving an indelible mark on my mind. To make matters worse, I was kidnapped shortly thereafter, with Kaellan being forced to witness as Damon violated me. Memories of past torment resurfaced, reminding me of the times when I was tortured and violated by multiple individuals, all to ensure my silence regarding his secret.

I was forced to keep my mouth shut, forced to endure all the pain so that he won't hurt Kye. I endured all of his torture so that he won't hurt Kye but after everything that I did, without Kye's knowledge about everything I tried to be strong, to continue living my life like nothing horrible is happening to me after every mission. To my surprise, Kaellan stopped his horrible torture with me and was then dropped by the gang without any notice or reason why. After that, Kye started to be distant, I tried my best to make our relationship work but then he just stopped. He stopped talking to me and cut all our connections. The pain of losing hims after enduring all those pain got me, I lost it. Despite being strong to continue live my life like Harper said, there are times that everything just feels so overwhelming. But I did survive and eventually forgot about the abuse.

I moved on and focused on rebuilding my life, trying to forget about the painful past. I surrounded myself with supportive friends and family who helped me heal. Despite the hurt and betrayal, I remained determined to find happiness again.

Months passed, and I slowly started to regain my strength and confidence. I focused on my career, throwing myself into my work and striving for success. It became my way of proving to myself that I was capable of moving forward.

However, there were still moments when the memories would resurface, and the overwhelming pain would hit me like a powerful wave. It was during those times that I sought help from a therapist who specialized in trauma. Together, we worked through the trauma and the emotions that I had buried deep within.

Tears continues to fall from my eyes as I told my therapist everything. She was shocked on how long I have been keeping this secret but she told me it was normal for a trauma patient to forget their traumatic experience after along time. Despite my years of sessions with her because of my depression upon losing Kye, she finally understood how deep my connection is with Kye. She understand why it is so hard for me to let him go after everything that happened. All the missing pieces of my story are now unravelled, making her understand me more.

Sandra's understanding and validation provided an immense sense of relief. Knowing that someone believed me and understood the complexities of my situation validated my experiences and made me feel less alone. With her support, we delved deeper into my emotions and memories, unraveling the missing pieces of my story.

The process was not easy. It brought up intense emotions and memories that I had buried deep within. There were times when I felt overwhelmed, but my therapist guided me through the healing process with compassion and expertise.

Together, we explored the impact of the trauma on my emotional well-being and the reasons why it was so difficult for me to let go of Kye. We dove into the intricacies of the connection I had with him and the conflicting emotions that came with it.

Through therapy, I gained a better understanding of myself and my actions. I learned that it was natural to cling onto something familiar, even if it was harmful, rather than face the unknown. I had become accustomed to the abuse, and the idea of letting go of Kye filled me with fear and uncertainty.

Sandra helped me challenge these fears and explore healthier coping mechanisms. She guided me towards rebuilding my self-worth and understanding that true love should never come at the cost of one's well-being. With each session, I grew stronger, and the weight of the past began to lift.

As I gradually healed, Sandra also empowered me to set boundaries and prioritize my own needs. She encouraged me to reflect on what I truly wanted in a relationship and to picture a future where I felt loved, cherished, and respected. At the end of the day, Kye was still the one I pictured to be with but I came to realization that I won't be able to have those with him. It was sad but that's the reality of it. Despite our love for each other, despite how deep our connection may be, there are things that's out of our hands.

It was a long and challenging journey, but with my therapist's support, I finally began to let go and move forward. I released the hold that Kaellan had on me, recognizing that I deserved nothing of his torture.

In the process, I discovered my own strength, resilience, and capacity for growth. I became determined to live a life free from abuse, surrounded by love, and filled with joy. Though scars remained, I learned to wear them with pride, as they were reminders of my ability to survive and thrive.

With my therapist's guidance, I embraced self-compassion and embarked on a journey of self-discovery. I reconnected with my passions, rediscovered my strengths, and became the author of my own story.

Now, I stand tall, grateful for the therapy that helped me heal and reclaim my life. I am no longer defined by the pain of the past but instead empowered by the strength I found within myself. I am determined to continue thriving and building a future filled with happiness, love, and self-fulfillment.

With the strength and determination, I continue to live my life, I also held an inspirational seminar at my cafe for trauma and rape survivors, to tell them that they are not alone and that they have every right to move forward and live a happy life again.