More than friends

Chapter 16

KADE

I couldn't move from where I was standing as I watched her walk away to the bedroom.

As soon as I heard the bedroom door slam, I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding.

My legs were about to give out. I quickly grabbed the chair nearest to me and sat down.

Brie's words ringing in my head. "I had feelings for you too, but you hurt me when you went out with the girls."

Shaking my head as pain hit me, but another part of what she said came crashing at me. "You would have never settled for me, not the way I looked back then."

Hearing those words had my heart breaking into two. I made her feel like that. I never thought she felt the same way, but thinking about it, I never took that time to think if she did. I was either training or hooking up with a new girl.

I would have never introduced her to Rachel if I had known how she felt, saying that I would probably have got rid of her, if Brie had asked. I would have still done anything for her even if I was a dick.

Leaning back in the chair, my heart breaking for her words, anger was there.

Anger toward myself for being a fool and not taking any notice of what all this was doing to her. Not noticing that she had the same feelings I had back then.

I could have been having everything that Dominic and Larissa were having now.

My hands clenched into a fist as every fibre in me was fighting. After the wars I had seen, I knew what anger does to people and it could lead to something. Most of the guys I know have been drinking or using some form of substance to forget.

I never touched anything, not even drink. I knew if I placed a beer bottle to my lips, I would end up like the others. I was determined not to be like them. I fought to keep my mind away, making sure I was doing something worthwhile, making things and talking to my therapist. I know I still have a long way to go to find me, or what's left.

I looked up to the corridor where Brie had gone. I wanted to go in there and take her in arms, apologize to her, make her mine when she was ready.

My anger was at the peak, I gripped one of the mugs and launched it at the wall. Coffee splattered all over the walls and floor, as the mug shattered into pieces.

I needed to get out of here.

Moving up from the chair, I headed to the front door. I pulled it open and slammed it behind me, as I took off running.

The rain was back as I turned a corner.

My head was full, and running was the only source I could use while I was feeling like this.

I ran, not knowing where to go.

My feet pounded the ground, as I kept going. Not knowing where I was, until I stopped and stared at the place I would be working at in the next few weeks. This was my second chance, my second chance of being me.

I stared at the building but looked around. There was no one around. It was getting late now.

Sleep would never come, and when it did, I didn't know what I would get. Knowing my luck, they would be about Brie.

Letting out a sigh, I turn around and walk away. Heading back in the direction I came from. I shouldn't have left, not like that.

Starting off into a jog, I made it back to the house and slowed as I came to the door. I opened it and walked inside.