after hours | tom kaulitz

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I stared at myself in the mirror, admiring the way I looked for a moment, I traced over old scars and nearly healed scabs as I tried my best to not recall the memories.

I gently applied aloe vera to the scars littered on my body, rubbing it seamlessly into my skin.

I had to go out with James soon, he was taking me to Junisoh, the same place Tom brought me on our first date.

I knew thinking about Tom was wrong, especially at times like this, but I couldn't not think about him, every memory would replay in my head time and time again just as I thought I was getting better.

I sighed shakily as I slipped on a dress and knee high socks, grabbing my pair of fluffy lace up uggs and slipping them on too, my makeup and hair already having been done beforehand.

I slowly sat back on the bed, careful to not mess around with the scabs as I waited for James.

after a while of waiting, I heard a car horn honk, signaling he was outside.

I made my way downstairs as I waved to my mom and let her know I loved her.

"Oh, and Madeleine?" I turned around, staring at my mom.

"be safe" I smiled at her, waving my hand as I pushed a bit of hair behind my ear.

"I will, mama"

as I slipped into the passenger seat of the car, James greeted me, kissing my hand before pulling out of my driveway and starting to go.

once we got to the restaurant I looked around at a few of the people, none were staring this time, the staff was, though.

I heard a couple of the workers whisper as they stared, only hearing broken sentences.

"Hello, Madeleine" the worker who had served me and Tom on our first date came up to me, I blushed; growing embarrassed as I looked away.

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when we got home my mom was no longer there, most likely having gone out after we left.

I took him up to my room, ready to change and watch some TV before heading to bed.

"you're so beautiful" he smiled as I changed, slipping my pants off and changing into shorts and a t-shirt.

when I sat back down on the bed, he cuddled up against me as we turned on the Tv and began watching a movie.

after a while of watching the movie, I felt kisses line my neck until he turned my head and began kissing my lips, it stayed that way for a while until he attempted to slip a hand down my shorts.

I pulled away, putting a hand on his chest and pushing him back slightly, shaking my head.

"no- I don't want to" he stared for a moment, smiling and shaking his head.

"no worries, I'll wait for you" he grabbed my hand and kissed it, sitting up out of bed and grabbing his things.

"you're leaving?" he said nothing for a moment, just stared at me.

"I have to get home Maddy, you know that" I gave no response as I watched him walk out of the room.

I sat for a while, hearing the crunching of gravel as his car pulled out of my driveway.

I scoffed as I shook my head, checking my phone before turning on a new channel.

when I turned the channel, it was the last person I expected to see.

Tom, Bill, Gustav, and Georg were racing.

I leaned forward a bit, staring at the tv as I engulfed myself in the race happening.

at first, Tom was winning, then Georg, then Bill, then Tom again.

I watched his car speed past the end line, getting out of his car after it stopped, and the other boys' cars slowing to a stop next to Toms.

when the other 3 got out of their cars the camera got closer to him, a microphone pointed in his face.

"you won once again Tom!" the person behind the camera said, allowing Tom time to smile and pat his car hood.

"hey don't forget about the others, they did great as well" The camera then panned to the other boys, showing Bill, georg, and Gustav talking before looking at the camera and smiling.

I saw Tom out of the corner of the screen, peeling at his hands again.

I scowled, knowing he wouldn't know I did it.

the camera panned back over to Tom, asking him a few questions before asking one final one.

"is there anything you wanna say to live television?" Tom stared for a moment, biting his lip and messing with his lip ring before finally speaking.

"Madeleine" I shot up even further at my name coming out of his mouth, tears forming in my eyes.

"I need you, so badly, and I miss you more than anything, please talk to me soon" his voice was soft and almost careful sounding, as if he was berry picking each word in his head.

"you're my everything, I don't wanna lose you" I shook as the topic changed, shutting off the tv and laying down in bed, staring at my ceiling until I finally fell asleep.