after hours | tom kaulitz

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I sat in bed, staring at my phone as I silently dialed in his number, humming along to each ring as I patiently waited for him to pick up.

after several rings I heard the soft grumbling and shuffling from his line, a heavy sigh sounding.

"what's up, Maddy"

for a minute I stayed silent, unable to think about what I wanted to say, an uncomfortable tension in the air between us.

"We need to talk... can you come over?" another heavy sigh came from the phone before 3 consecutive beeps signaled me he had hung up.

I groaned as I laid back on the bed, letting my eyes close as tears welled up in them.

he was being such an asshole.

Bill was gonna be here in 30 minutes, so I hoped the chat me and James would have would be shorter than that.

after nearly 15 minutes of waiting, I heard a knock on my front door, my mom shouting up at me that he was on his way up. I gave no response.

Bill would be here soon, and I was only able to hope he wouldn't be here when James was. I was scared of the fight that'd cause.

after a couple of moments, I heard 3 knocks on my door, before I could answer, though, he let himself in.

"what'd you need?" I knew he wasn't trying to be rude, but his face and tone held so much anger, I could only stare as I lay in bed and stared at his face.

"so..." I shuddered, feeling fear beginning to well in my veins as I shakily breathed.

"Can you sit down.." he cocked a brow, shooting a look at the desk chair neatly tucked into my work desk before shaking his head.

"I don't plan on staying long, so no" I sighed, gripping the sheets beneath my fingertips and doing my best to think about what I wanted to say.

"I think we should... breakup" he nodded, scoffing and rolling his eyes as I watched his fists clench beneath his crossed arms.

it stayed silent for a moment, I knew I'd have to tell him anytime now. my heart was yelling at me not to, but my brain was screaming at me to tell him.

I took a deep breath in and looked him in his eyes.

"I... cheated on you" The anger in his face washed away, quickly being replaced with shock as he stared me in the eyes, arms falling to his side as we stared at each other.

"What?"

I gritted my teeth, turning my head away from him as I felt his eyes bore holes into the side of my head.

"with who? when?" he began bombarding me with questions, anxiety filling me completely as I balled myself up into the wall on my bed, my hands shooting up to my ears as he asked question after question.

after a what felt like an eternity I felt his presence get closer to me, hand wrapped around my arm as he yanked me upwards, a yelp emitting from my throat as he grabbed my chin with one hand and forced me to look at him, other hand still placed on my arm.

"Answer my fucking questions Madeleine!" he shouted, anger returning back to his features.

I heard my door quickly open, my eyes shooting to the new figure.

it was Bill, and his shocked face quickly turned into anger.

he rushed over, shoving James off me and watching as he fell on the floor.

"fuck you!" James spat, I shuffled back into the corner of the bed, running my fingertips lightly over the newly adorned bruises.

"is this the guy you cheated with?" I watched Bill's face turn to shock as he turned to me, taking a step back.

silence filled the room as Bill tried to process what that meant.

"get out." Bill spat at James, grabbing the collar of his shirt and throwing him forward slightly.

"fuck off man I'm going..." I heard James mutter under his breath as he stood up and got himself situated.

"and tell your little slut of a girlfriend not to date guys if she can't stay loyal" he flipped me off as he walked out, Bill quickly walked over to the door and slammed it shut as he took a deep breath and slowly made his way over to me, sitting down on the bed next to me.

I examined his facial features, his brows were quivering and his eyes were wide, lips pursed into a tight line as he breathed through his nose.

"it was Tom wasn't it?" I said nothing, but I figured my silence was more than enough of an answer.

"Maddy, I'm gonna tell you, then I'll leave..." he took another deep breath, peeling the skin off his nails as he finally turned to look at me.

"I don't care who you date, or who you want" he paused, scooting closer to me and grabbing my hand.

"but you can't keep toying with Tom like this" I sighed, tears beginning to well in my eyes as my lip began shaking, indicating I was about to cry.

"I don't mean to-" Bill cut me off with a small squeeze of my hand, shaking his head as he began to talk.

"it's my turn to talk, not yours" I stared into his eyes for a moment and slowly nodded, averting my gaze from his.

"you can either be with Tom, or be with someone else, but stop making Tom think you'll get back with him if you're not gonna"

I burst into tears, bills arms wrapping around me and running up and down my back to soothe me.

"I'm such a bad person" he shook his head into my neck, holding me tightly. He pulled away and allowed me to calm down before he began talking again.

"you're not a bad person, you're a good person who did some bad things, and that doesn't make you any less you" he whispered, hand still engulfed in mine.

"Can I have some time to myself? I can stop by soon if you wanna see me but..." I paused, turning my gaze back to Bill as he softly smiled.

"I just wanna be alone right now.." he nodded, slowly getting up and telling me to feel better and stop by soon.

I didn't listen for the crunching of the gravel this time, or the sound of the car door slamming, or even the sound of him saying bye to my mom.

I just turned toward the wall and lay in bed, hands over my eyes as I cried myself to sleep.