after hours | tom kaulitz

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you'd think after being locked away for so long, beaten and bruised, it would change you; make you stronger.

this did change me, however, it did not make me stronger, every little thing reminded me of that basement, I couldn't even bring myself to get out of bed.

some nights I barely got rest, others I got way too much, I had lost track of any sense of time in that place and it was beginning to fuck with my head out of it.

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"my head hurts, mama" my voice cracked as I struggled to get it out, I had entirely lost it, throat burning as every word suffocated me more.

"you need to shower, mads" She looked up at me, eyes damp and red.
I said nothing, just looked down and stared at the bed.

after a moment, I nodded, slowly sliding my feet off the bed, still wearing the bloody tank top and my underwear.
my mom stood up with me, grabbing my shoulders to stabilize my shaky body.

"I've got you Madeleine, you'll be okay" I winced at the name, suddenly feeling the urge to throw up.

"Please don't call me that" Tears filled my eyes as I fell to the floor, my stomach forming a pit as I started sobbing.

my mom just looked down at me, staring.

"What did they do to you, Maddy..." I sobbed more, my heart pounding as I fell to my side, curled up in a ball on my carpet.

my mom stayed for a moment longer, staring at my shaky body on the floor before making her way to my bathroom.
I heard the water start, my body aching.

it wasn't long before my mom showed up at my side once more, helping me up and towards the bathroom.

she steadied me before placing her fingertips on the hem of my shirt, I slapped her hand and screamed, backing away.

"Maddy! stop! you're gonna get hurt-"

"don't touch me please don't touch me I'm sorry"

I was screaming, and crying, and my chest felt like it was being crushed as she took a step toward me.

"get away from me!" another step.

"Maddy!" I slipped, water beneath my foot sending me tumbling down, I suddenly heard a crack before everything went black.

toms pov

I had sat on the couch, just staring at the tv, every now and then something interesting would play, something that would remind me of her. it would catch my attention then instantly lose it once I realized it wasn't her.

I grabbed the remote, about to turn off the tv until-

"This is Lauren reporting live from Sanno hospital, at 10:33 am a 19 year old girl named madeleine parker was admitted into the hospital with extensive head bleeding, while in the hospital medical professionals found ample beating and bruises, after several x rays they also found severe bone bruising in several areas and 8 broken bones; 4 of which were her ribs"

I shot up, dropping the remote, I screamed as loud as I possibly could, picking up furniture after furniture and throwing it, glass breaking constantly.

after a short moment, the other 3 boys ran downstairs.

"Tom what the fuck!" Georg yelled, running towards me, attempting to grab me, I was quick to shove him off, though; pointing my gun at him.

"if you fucking stop me, I'll kill you and then myself" Bill took a step back, staring at me with wide eyes.

"Tom don't do this" he stuttered, taking a step towards me but stopping when I pointed the barrel towards him.

"if madeleine dies, everyone fucking has to"

I stormed out of the house, hurriedly hopping in the car, placing the gun next to me before driving off towards the hospital

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"I'm here to see Madeleine" she cocked a brow, popping a bubble from her gum.

"Parker- Madeleine Parker!" the woman gave me a nasty look, rolled her eyes, and typed on her computer after I yelled.

"jeez, no need to be a dick" I slammed my right hand against the counter while the other lay against the gun in my pocket.

"tell me where Madeleine Parker is right fucking now or I swear to god I will kill everyone in this place" Her bitchy look was quick to drop once I said that, immediately turning into fear before typing on her computer frantically.

"Are you calling the fucking police?" I pointed the gun at her.

"do you know who the fuck I am? tell me where Madeleine is!" I screamed again, she was starting to cry as she typed quicker and quicker.

"floor 2 room 347- please don't hurt me" She was full on bawling by the time I left, I bolted, running as fast as I possibly could.

after a rough 5 minutes of looking, I finally found the room, bursting into it.

her mom was sitting in the chair next to her, crying as Madeleine lay in the hospital bed, her face still covered in blood.

"she doesn't want you here Tom" her mom sniffled, looking me up and down disgustedly as I stood.

I said nothing, my gut wrenching as I watched her beautiful body lay in the bed, it felt like a scene out of a horror movie.

I knew she didn't belong here, I knew she deserved to be at home, with her mom, watching her favorite movies and eating her favorite snacks.

"it wasn't meant to go this far..." I croaked out, tears welling in my eyes as I listened for every beep on the monitor.

"she wasn't part of the plan" I cried, I hadn't moved from my position once.

"what does that mean?"

"I never expected to love anyone as much as I do her, she's changed everything... and I don't know what to do with myself now" Her mom's gaze softened after hearing my words, lip quivering as she looked away.

"Please just leave Tom, I'll tell you if she wakes up... just stop coming to see her" Her mom was visibly tired, curled into a ball on an uncomfortable couch watching her only child die right next to her, I don't blame her for being tired, I couldn't, because I wasn't the one in that chair.

"tell her I love her" I made my way down the first floor once more and walked out of the hospital, everything in me hurting.

"I love you, Madeleine" I sobbed, hitting my fists against the steering wheel before starting the car and speeding off.