SPOTLIGHT

Chapter 45 | loosing everything

Y/n pov

I stirred awake in a hospital bed adjusting my vision..but as quickly as I remembered what happened i immediately stood up asking for a nurse.

"Ma'am? What are you doing? Please go back in your bed" they started going to me

"I'm ok... I just need to see my girlfriend.. please.." i calmly stated not wanting them to push me away

They just looked at each other with an unreadable expression "which patient again, ma'am?" He breathes out "Scarlett.. Scarlett Johansson" i nodded

They eventually agreed to take me.."can you at least tell me she's fine?" I sigh walking our way there

They approached a doctor and he looked at me trying to identify who i was before he started explaining what happened

" It was a car crash.. some people immediately called help and we called you because you're the only one who was specified to have a relationship with her on her contacts.." he explained as i held back my tears

My mind is going on a full on overthinking madness but I'm fighting the urge to show it. I'm worried, I'm panicking, I'm having palpitations.

We stopped at an ICU and there she is...lots of machines all over her...i felt my vision rotating again but i managed to make it stop.. I'm just glad she's alive..

"She's currently in a coma.. if she won't wake up in 2 to 4 weeks.... we're sorry but.. it can result in a persistent vegetative state, or brain death.." he sighs..

"Can i go to her?" I begged earning his nod.

They made me wear protective clothes before i could get it... She has a bandage on her head while still full of wounds and bruises..

"Im s-sorry" i mumbled holding her hand kissing it gently feeling tears running down my cheeks

"If I just know this will happen...i would have just told you to stop from the very first day you landed in sweden... I'm sorry..." I hid my face sobbing on her hand..

I know this is my fault..if i didn't come into her life she wouldn't be here... it's dangerous and i let her go by herself..i just put everyone in danger everytime..

"I-ill do anything.. just wake up.. not even for me but for rosie and cosmo...p-please.. i promise I'll leave you alone if you did.. I'm s-sorry" I ran after my breath still trying to wake her up..

Nothing has changed in her state..i don't know what to do.. what to tell the kids.. i have no idea what's next..but as of now i only want to hear her voice...tell me it's ok.. tell me she's just right here..

As i leaned closer.. something hit me in my pockets..i grabbed it seeing the ring i got for her.."Scar...L-Look" i forced a smile as my tears ran down my cheeks nonstop.. showing her the ring.

"When i saw this..i immediately thought you'll love it... it's red.. your favorite color..i know money doesn't impress you..this is nothing.. but i promise..i put my heart on choosing the best for you..and I'll do that..every..single..time..." I added putting the ring on her finger as it fit so well.

"I l-love you so much..y-you have no idea how you managed to change my life..you saved me a million times.. even if you don't even know that you do..you managed to pull me out of that darkness that I've been trying to escape my whole life.."

"i need your hugs.. i need your kisses..i need your smiles.. i need you to tell me it's ok.. i-i need you to save me from myself...I n-need you...p-please wake up..i-im begging y-you" i sobbed finding my face on her bed letting my tears fall.

Someone suddenly touched me by my shoulder... As i looked back.. it was vic.. my manager "I'm sorry" she sighs.

"I know you're going through a lot right now but we need to talk.." she added leaving the room as a signal for me to follow her.

I did.. i followed her outside but i still can't get my emotions together.. my head even started hurting.."you've been ignoring my messages and calls..i understand why...but you need to go back to newyork now...marvel just hired you.. that's your dream right?" She smiled but i stayed emotionless

"It doesn't matter anymore.. I'm not going back there. Scarlett needs me" i swallowed thickly looking back at her

"You just lost projects lined up for you from those paparazzi pictures of you two making out...this is your chance to get your spotlight back.. marvel is the key" she shaked her head

" Look... Vic..i know you're just trying your best to choose the best for me.. you've treated me as your own.. but I'm not yours.. all i do has been following everything you say...let me follow myself this Time... Please"

" You can do that next time BUT PLEASE LISTEN TO ME..your name is dying...you need this"

"do i? Or do you?" I huffed

"you're throwing everything you ever wanted and worked for you're entire life for someone you just met like what? A month or two? What if she's playing woth you again? And you're here biting their bait voluntarily...You have 4 weeks to decide..Lose this role and you'll lose everything."

" She loves me " i looked at her directly in the eyes

" Because what? She said so? She followed you? Y/n...."

" Because i felt so... I've never been loved before...it feels nice.." i nodded smiling tears running down my cheeks while she stares at me with pity on her eyes

"think about this...love isn't always worth the risk" she sighs

" You're fired.." i swallowed thickly

"w-what?"

"I've been through enough... I know what's best for me"

"you ungrateful bitch... After all I've done for you.."

" I'm sorry " i looked down as she walked away..

She's been the best person by my side throughout my acting career but i know holding her while I'm in this time of situation is really unfair.

I just breathe out putting a new facemask going inside Scarlett's room again...but before i even did.. vic called out my name making me look back at her "good luck" she sincerely says before smiling earning my nod

As I went back inside i just sat beside Scarlett's bed holding her hand..i don't care if it takes me hours.. days.. weeks or even months of waiting.. as long as she wakes up.

I'm just staring at her face full of cuts and bandages..i couldn't take it..if i could just switch our situations i would.. if i need to leave so she could be safe.. I would.