SPOTLIGHT

Chapter 40 | deeper

Scarlett pov

After visiting her dad we decided to go to her house already since we both still have a little hit of jet lag..

The house was huge...but it's as quiet as her house in new york. She decided to get some sleep already but i wanted to freshen up first and take a quick shower.

I followed her upstairs so I'll know where to sleep later.. weirdly enough she went to a guestroom.. there's one room here that has a huge door with literally her name on it..

Being curious i went there..the room was a mess... clothes and different art supplies on the floor, dust everywhere.. there are even some ripped paintings all over the floor.

Used dirty plates everywhere...cans and bottles of liquor.. the room was huge yet you can't even step on the floor itself. The pillows have these huge dried out water stains? I'm trying not to think these are tears..

"Y/n.." i sigh having such a heavy feeling on my chest holding the pilow

I sat on the bed and as i narrowed my eyes.. a cabinet caught my attention..i slowly walked towards it not wanting to make any noise..

I regret it.. i quickly stepped back.. my eyes widened..it was full of different kinds of pills... cutters and blades.. some of them even had dried blood on them..

My heartbeat stopped hearing a loud scream thru the walls.. i quickly ran back to y/n.. i stumbled seeing her at the corner of the room sitting down shouting and sobbing covering her ears like a kid.

I immediately went to her pulling her on a hug while she just kept on crying shaking aggressively in fear.. "what's the matter??? Tell me" i strongly says rubbing her shoulder

"T-Theyre arguing again.. M-Make them s-stop!!" She shouted

"S-Scarlett...M-Make Them s-stop" she begged looking directly at my eyes catching her breath.. still bailing her feelings out..

"I will... everything is fine.... they will stop.. ok?" I swallowed thickly kissing her forehead actually feeling tears running down my own cheeks

"Make them s-stop.."she sobbed getting a little calmer now

"Shhh... it's ok.. I'm here.. Scarlett is here"

After few more minutes of calming her down she let me put her on the bed tucking her in.. she's still breathing heavily catching her breath while tears are still falling from her close eyes.

I don't know why but I'm getting so emotional just looking at her... she's just a kid..

I gently grabbed both her wrist looking for something i genuinely don't wanna find..

There was nothing...i removed the sheets lifting her shorts a little... there they were... She's full of scars.. ones that were intentional.. some are even fresh and still a wound

My heart dropped..i couldn't imagine how much she went through to do that to herself...i ended up leaving the room and just sat on the floor sobbing in silence.

Everything is going through my head.. everything fucked up that i did to her..and i just can't imagine.. everything..

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I stirred awake with someone tapping my hand..it was a lady...turns out i accident slept here outside the hall

"I'm the House keeper" she introduced herself smiling

"Oh.. uhm.. Scarlett" i shook her hand

"Are you gonna eat here? So yknow I'll cook for you two"

"I don't know.. I'll ask y/n when she wakes up"

She just smiled at me and left.. i went inside the room seeing y/n is still sleeping.. i just sat beside her combing her hair between my fingers before she stirred awake

" Oh.. im sorry.. did i wake you up?"

"I-It's f-fine" she sat down holding her forehead

" You ok? "

"My head hurts-- did you cry?" She suddenly asks.. are my eyes that puffy?

"No... just had a great sleep" i reassured her warning her nod

She probably don't remember what happened.."oh..a lady asked if you wanna eat breakfast here" i raised it

"Lady?" She huffed

"Yeah... your caretaker"

"I... Don't have a caretaker... I live alone if it's not obvious on the dusts" she scratched her head

"W-What? Tell me you're kidding..y/n in serious"

"i am too.. i only have sedrick.. the guard? Tho i did had a caretaker before.. she died like a few months ago and i haven't looked for a new one yet" she stated looking weird out

"is.. she like a small woman.. dark short hair... birthmark on her cheeks? "

She looked at me even more weird out now.. I'M SCARED

"how'd you know?" She tilt her head

"SHUT UP.. Y/N I'M SERIOUS"

"I'm just kidding, yeah she's my caretaker" she chuckled and i just dropped my Expression annoyed before pushing her

Shw suddenly groaned holding her head " ouch!! You just shook my brain!" She complains

" I'm sorry.. I'm sorry" i quickly pulled her on a hug but couldn't stop my laugh

We went downstairs and the lady was cleaning some furniture "goodmorning" she greeted us but I'm still hiding behind y/n

"Scarlett... she's real ok?" She scoffed

She eventually told her to cook breakfast while we went to the rooftop part of the house.. there were some chairs and even some telescope but it's pointed down.. i looked thru it and yeah we have a new set of paparazzis waiting for us to come out

I sat next to her while she's staring from afar "y/n..?"

"Hmm?"

"Don't get mad ok?"

"What did you do?" She seriously says glaring her body towards me

I stayed quiet.."ok yeah I'm not gonna be mad" she reassured

" I went to your room..." She looked at me with an unreadable expression and I'm panicking inside and i should definitely stop doing that

"did you.. saw the.. uhm"

" Yes" i mumbled.. she just nodded and looked back at the sky

" I'm sorry...."

"It's ok... I was dumb to do that..but you know.. it taught me a lot.. made me stronger" she forced a smile

"You were a kid...you didn't need to be strong.. you needed to be protected" i swallowed thickly

She looked down chuckling "you understand me" she looked back at me with a smile

I went to her sitting on her lap As she held both my hands " next time you feel like hurting yourself..go to Scarlett.. were gonna talk it..away from hurt.. ok?" I mumbled

"Scarlet is in sweden" she suddenly says

"ME SCARLETT THE ONE WITH TWO T'S ON HER NAME.. ME" i huffed hearing her laugh hiding her face on my back