Varun's POV (Point of View)
Kya me sach me Sid se pyar karta hu? Oh God what is happening with me?? I can't stop thinking about him. His brown orbs, his cosmic smile, his deep and expressive eyes that I can stare at for hours. Eveything is so special about him... Really Siddharth me bohot pyaar karne laga hu tumse..
But, does he think same about me? Usne toh kaha tha ki uski koi girlfriend nahi hai. But then woh Kriya se bohot close hai. Aur kya woh Ladko se pyar karta hai? Kahi usne mere sath friendship todd di toh.... And if I told him that I love him will he be disgusted by me? Shitt this is so messed up!!
Once Varun was sure about his feelings towards Siddharth. He wanted to tell Sid about it too but he didn't know how would sid take this news.
He was not sure if Sid was into men.
But again keeping his feelings for himself would do nothing and there was a transparency between him and Sid. Maybe it can affect their friendship too..
Siddharth came breaking his chain of thoughts,
"Itna kya soch rahe ho Sir. What are you thinking about Is everythink okay?" asked Sid. Varun was surprised seeing him and just nodded his head and stammered a little, "Haan... haan sab theek hai. I'm okay'' "But you don't look alright. You look stressed, college me sab theek hai" asked Sid. He was concerened for varun. He genuinely cared for him.
Varun after a paused said, "Mere college me ek ladka hai woh apne dost se pyaar karta hai. Toh kya usse woh apne dost ko batana chahiye?" Sid was surprised by his question as Why on the earth Varun took so much stress about this but he didn't know the reality. It was not Varun's college mate but Varun himself. "Haan zarur batana chahiye woh pyar karta hai definetly she should know about his feelings."
Varun said calmly, " Sid it's not SHE it's HE. Woh ek ladke se pyar karta hai. And he is his friend. Ye sab baate batake woh friendship todna nahi chahta. He is fearing that his friend would get disgusted by himself" Sid was taken aback about his question but he soon composed himself and answered, "So what Sir. I think he should tell his friend. And why would his friend must get disgusted? Just because woh same gender se hai? Aur kya fayda fir aise dosti ka jo itni kamzoor ho aur ye baat pe toot jaye. Rejection uske baad ki baat hai. He should take his step. I believe ki cheeze share karne se baate solve hoti hai..
"Sid are you understanding he loves a man! Shayad ye kabhi accept nahi hoga society me. What would people say..Aur agar usne apne feelings bata bhi diye, but he don't know if his friend is into men " Varun asked impatiently. "Sir I'm not homophobic!! Jo jisse pyar karna chahta hai usse kare.. We live in 21st century and I don't care what people say. If two souls loves each other they should get united regardless of their gender. Aur rahi baat society ki toh kuch bhi kare log toh bolte hai. We can't satisfy everyone, but we can be satisfied with ourselves. I think he should talk with his friend uske baad he toh usse pata chalega ki woh kya sochta hai?" Siddharth said. Here Varun was relieved that Sid will not disgusted by him or will break their friendship. Now he wanted to tell his feelings but he was waiting fot the correct time.
Meanwhile Siddharth asked Varun,
"Sir ek baat batani hai, actually aapse ek permission chahiye" Varun frowned and asked "Kesi permission sid?"
"Mujhe ghar jane ki permission chahiye. Actually abhi jaha me reh raha hu waha ke property ke mamle me ek kaam hai. I need your permission. Can I go home please?" Sid asked very cutely. "Hmm jao" Varun agreed half heartedly. It was the first time Sid was going to leave him. Varun asked after a pause, "Kitne din keliye jana hai tumhe?"
Varun was sad that he cannot be with Sid for some days. "Yahi bas 5 din. Sir I will try best to come back soon. Me jab tak nahi hu tab tak aapke liye ek alag driver rakha hai."Sid replied after seeing Varun's not so happy face.
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Phewww so Finally Varun realised his feelings.
What would you all think ? How will Sid reply to him..
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