and this weight
crushed my chest completely
it felt like a tidal wave
had crested upon me
and the only thing
keeping me afloat
was the pure intensity
of adrenaline
that i'm sure i would feel
should i ever come across
an actual tidal wave (and would subsequently get lost,
or drown
or just cease to exist in).
discouragement comes easily
and sure,
recovery is not linear.
healing does not take place
all at once.
it takes time,
and like a tidal wave
you must swim alongside it
so as not to disrupt the flow
of learning your emotions
as well as
identifying how to control
those emotions
that swallow you whole.
sometimes you have to wait
for the light at the end of the tunnel
to get just a little bit brighter
before you take the plunge.
sometimes you have to take
the thrill of the plunge
for the light
to get just a little bit brighter
then it had been
before.
