Liam was on top of me breathing deeply. He put his hands on my hips; he unbuttoned my pants and slowly slid them down my thighs. He kissed my hip bones on his way back up, his hands examining every inch of my body. Leaving kisses on spots he adored the most.
The lighting was perfect. It really set the mood. As Liam’s hands went down to my thighs I pulled away a little bit because it was all so new to me. He decided to come back up and pull my shirt over my head. Once the shirt was over my head my long hair fell onto the pillow. He brushed his fingers through my tangled hair while kissing my lips.
There was something very different about these kisses; they were rougher, deeper, and there was a lot more tongue. His hand was on my hip lightly squeezing, as I bit his lip lightly. His breathing got deeper and deeper. I could feel his bulge on my leg.
He put his hands behind my back getting quicker and unhooked my bra. He slid the straps off each arm and let it fall onto the floor. He cupped them into his hands and continued to kiss me. My heart was beating faster and faster. I started to get nervous I would do something wrong. Then I remembered that I don’t care. I can be myself around Liam. I didnt have to act a different way. If i did something wrong I don't think Liam would care.
Every time Liam would look into my eyes the more comfortable I got. He was so gentle. He kissed down the center of my chest and to my panties. He slid them down my legs and smiled once he saw. He came back up and kissed my lips.
“Take them off of me.” He said gesturing to his boxers.
I placed my hands on his hips and slowly took them off of him. Once again my breath was taken away. He was enormous. He let out a chuckle and kissed my neck.
“Are you ready?” he asked.
I took a deep breath in and then out. “I’m ready.” I replied.
I closed my eyes letting him take control of everything. I knew it was going to hurt. It was my first time. My heart was pounding. I felt his slowly enter; I took a gasp for air as he pushed himself into me. It hurt, I tried to relax.
“You’re beautiful, do you know that?” he asked me.
A smile appeared on my lips. I had a feeling he was trying to get my mind off of the pain he knew I was in. He let out soft moans. Once I was used to him he went faster and harder, a cuss word escaping his lips a few times. I took a deep breath as I was almost there.
“Oh my god Ashley.” He panted leaving me.
I could feel a few tears escape my eyes when I opened them, only from the pain. It didn’t hurt any more. It was only pleasure. He lay on his back trying to catch his breath. I had just had sex for the first time. That was all I could think about. Liam was so gentle, but so big. I wasn’t sure I would be able to take him all. But I sure did.
So many emotions were going through my mind. I was happy, but I was sad, then I was scared. I couldn’t make up my mind. I really think I love Liam, and I’m glad I had my first time with him out of any guy in this world, but it was so soon.
I rolled over and put my arm around him. He put his fingers through my hair. We laid in silence. I was okay with it. My stomach began to hurt. I wasn’t sure why. Something didn’t seem right, but at the same time, everything seemed right.
~Next Morning~
I woke up still laying right next to Liam. He was snoring a little in between every breath he took. I quietly got out of the bed and grabbed my clothes and ran into the guest room embarrassed I was still naked. I got dressed into the sweats I brought and threw my messy hair into a bun.
I remembered from the other morning where everything was for breakfast. He still hadn’t gone food shopping so all there was is cereal. I got out a bowl and poured myself a bowl. I got the milk out of the fridge and heard Liam get out of bed. I smiled remembering everything that happened a few hours before. He came into the kitchen and kissed me before getting himself a bowl.
“How are you feeling?” he asked.
“Sore, but it’s worth it.” I cheekily replied.
He came up behind me and playfully tapped my butt. I turned around smirking at him. I sat down and eat the Lucky Charms I had poured for myself. Something still didn’t seem right. It’s a hard feeling to explain.
Once Liam and I finished our cereal I got my phone and turned it on. My phone started going crazy once it turned on. 5 missed calls from Deena. That was weird, 20 text messages from mom, dad, and Deena. Something was wrong. I looked through the text messages and all they said was,
Call us now! Or please come home now!!
I looked over at Liam from the room. He was sitting on the couch flipping through channels. I stared to get nervous. I closed the door a little bit to call my parents. I started to shake. I looked at the times everyone had called and texted they were only half an hour ago so I wasn’t that late.
I scrolled down to mom’s number and pressed call. It didn’t even ring twice and she picked up the phone.
“Ashley?” my dad asked.
“Yeah, dad what’s wrong?” I asked in a panicked.
“You need to come home right now!” he said fighting to get his words out.
“What’s wrong?” I yelled into the phone.
Liam came in concerned. I didn’t pay any attention to Liam. I hear my mom sister and grandma in the background sobbing. This was really starting to scare me.
“Your brother… H-he’s D-d-dead. My dad said beginning to sob.
I dropped the phone staring into the distance. I collapsed onto the floor, unable to breath. This can’t be happening. They have to have the wrong person or something! He was fine a week ago! He can’t be dead.
I was crying so hard I couldn’t breathe nor see, I was screaming. Liam came to my side and held me. I didn’t realize until he asked me what was wrong.
“My brother is dead! He’s dead! I struggled to get out.
“Take me home Liam. Please.” I begged.
He stood up trying to help me up. I couldn’t move, I just sat there and sobbed. I have never felt so much pain. Liam picked me up and carried me to the car. He put me in the car and ran back into the house to grab my stuff. He still said nothing. Just staring at me like I was some creature he had never seen before. I don’t blame him.
On the car ride back to my house my head was in my knees. Liam’s hand stayed on my back just rubbing it. Once we got to my grandma’s house. Liam walked me up to the door. Not even realizing what was about to happen.
“Go, I’ll let you know what’s going on. I love you.” I said still crying. Liam came and kissed me. He held me close, he was worried I could tell but he didn’t say anything to me. I don’t even think he knows I have a brother. I will explain, when I am in a state to.
“I love you.” He whispered leaving one last kiss upon my lips before I walked into the house.
Liam and I had the best time together. I really love him, my brother dying just puts a huge rock in the way of anything going any further between Liam and I. I just gave him everything, he gave me everything. That was the last time I would probably see him for a very long time.
I walked into the house, tears running down my face. Mom and dad were on the couch hugging, grandma Deena and Dan were on the kitchen floor just holding each other. I dropped my things and ran to my mom and dad. I threw myself onto them and sobbed. My brother was dead, I just talked to him a week ago, and he was fine. The thought of never seeing him sickened me. I couldn’t believe this terrible news was true. I would never see James again, my big brother, my protector.
“We love you James.” My mom whispered looking up.
Tears escaped my eyes. There was nothing on Earth that could bring James back. I had a great night, but it turned into a devastating morning, and its only 11 O’ clock.
