I can't love [Kazuscara]

A huge secret/Chapter 31

"What if... what if I told you... that I..."
He was sounding more nervous with every word now, he wanted to say it but it was too hard to say it...
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He could no longer hold it, he needed to say it now.
"KAZUHA, I... I LOVE YOU, YOU STUPID IDIOT!"
He didn't think too much about the words, he just needed Kazuha to know something. He was expecting a bad reaction, Kazuha wouldn't take him seriously, right?

Kazuha seemed surprised and smiled.
"Well...I love you too, but, you know we can't be together, it will bring you many consequences because of the Fatui and the Raiden Shogun, they don't want you to feel anything..."

"I... I know that, I don't really care about that, right now. "
"The thing is that... I wanted you to know my feelings, I didn't want to hide them for you any longer."
"I love you."
"I care about you."
"This is for real."
He was looking at Kazuha in the eyes, this was the first time he felt like he was able to open his heart in all his life.
"Can I really... count on you? Can you accept me for who I am, even if everyone hates me?"

"Yes, I'll accept you no matter what. You can count on me, I'll always be there for you. I love you too, Scaramouche."

Kazuha was saying everything Scaramouche needed to hear, he knew that now this was real. It was really happening to him, someone was accepting his feelings.
"You promise? That you'll always support me no matter what?"
He was feeling so happy about hearing all the right words. He was trying hard to hold his emotions. This was the first time he felt like he was able to believe everything Kazuha was saying.
"I feel like I'm in a dream... I can't believe this is happening..."
He couldn't believe it.

"I'll support you, I will always support you. Don't worry, you can destroy the whole Teyvat, I'll still be by your side." Kazuha smiled.

"So..."
"Even if my decisions will upset so many people... and even you, in a way..."
"You will still be there for me?"
He couldn't hide his feelings anymore, his voice was trembling. This all felt so surreal to him, a person like Kazuha could really exist? Was he real? He still wanted to accept this as a dream, he wanted to tell himself it wasn't true. What if all this was a lie...

"Yes, I'll still be there for you. Your happiness it's all that matters to me, Scara. You're a great villain, I don't care if you destroy cities or worlds, you'll still be amazing in my eyes."
Kazuha was being as honest as he could, he had so many feelings for Scaramouche and he couldn't even express them all.

"You know... you're making me cry."
He was starting to cry and feel a bit emotional now.
"After being alone for so many years, after seeing no one ever wanting to like the real me for my whole life, after getting bullied for something I didn't decide... finally someone is there for me."
"I don't feel alone anymore, I'm not a monster, I'm not just a puppet."
He was hugging Kazuha now.
"I love... I love you... Kazuha..."

Kazuha hugged Scaramouche back.
"I love you too...I love you."

"We'll always be together, right?"
He was still hugging Kazuha, he was feeling like a whole new world was opening in front of his eyes.
"This... This is real... someone likes... the real me..."
Even if he already knew all this, he still couldn't believe it. He was happy, he felt like this was a dream come true.

"We'll always be together, Scara, no matter in which form it is, I'll always be there for you. I really would like to be your boyfriend, but I know that you can't, but still, I'm so glad to be your friend." Kazuha smiled.