Secrets and Sins

Chapter 20

~Ava~

Ava woke to the feeling of lips dragging across the exposed skin of her chest, she lay still, pretending to be still asleep. She couldn’t help the little squeak that escaped her lips when she felt the flat of a tongue dip down between her still bra wearing breasts, licking a stripe up her sternum.

“Oh, so you are awake then?” Bea chuckled.

The sister warrior shuffled her way up Ava’s body until she was holding herself just above Ava’s face, resting on her elbows.

“Good morning.” She smiled, lowering herself down to give Ava a peck on the lips.

“Mmmm good morning.” Ava replied, reaching up to trace her thumb over Bea’s still swollen bottom lip.

"How are you feeling?" Bea asked, furrowing her eyebrows and glancing down her body.

Ava caught her drift and wiggled a little, testing her body for aches and pains.

"Maybe a little sensitive, but not bad." Ava said with a grin, memories of last night flooding into her brain.

Bea nodded looking away before rolling off Ava to lie on her back. The Halo bearer frowned; Bea seemed off.

Does she regret it?

The thought slithered into her head like a snake, making Ava's heart clench with fear. Taking a calming breath, the Halo bearer twisted onto her side propping up on her elbow so she could see Bea's face. The sister warrior's hands were resting on her stomach, Ava reached out and interlaced their fingers gently.

"You, okay?" She whispered, stroking her thumb over Bea's knuckles.

Bea was silent, staring at the ceiling, her face blank. Ava knew she was putting up that wall, the wall that she had maintained all her life to hide who she was.

"Bea." Ava implored, squeezing her hand.
"Please don't hide from me."

The sister warrior sighed, finally turning to meet Ava's eyes. The Halo bearer could see the barely contained pain in them.

"It's just, I've spent my whole life being told this is disgusting and wrong…that I'm..." Bea whispered, tears beginning to run down her cheeks.

"I know it's not now. I just wish I could have told a 15-year-old me that it wasn't. There were so many years of self-loathing, of self-hate…of self-harm." Bea grimaced a little at the last statement.

There was a long pause. Ava was unsure if she should speak. She sensed Bea wanted to say more. So, she decided to wait.

"Ava, I love you so much. And I love what we did, that was the best night of my life. But sometimes I still feel those things, those hateful thoughts. I just need you to be patient with me and to help me when I get stuck in my head." Bea offered her a watery smile.

Ava didn't know what to say, Bea had just bared her soul to her and she couldn't think of anything. So instead, she leaned forward pressing her lips to the sister warrior's, trying to pour everything she felt into the kiss instead. When she pulled back, Bea was looking at her with a stunned expression.

"You are amazing Beatrice; I will spend the rest of my life showing you just how amazing you are...if you let me." Ava whispered.

Ava reconnected them again, tasting the salt of Bea's tears. She kept the kiss light and gentle, letting Bea choose if she wanted to deepen it. The sister warrior reached up to hold Ava's face, thumbs running across her cheek bones. Ava smiled when she felt Bea's tongue stroke her bottom lip asking for entrance. She opened her mouth deepening the kiss. They lost themselves in the embrace for a while, reveling in each other.

Ava pulled away tugging at Bea's bottom lip with her teeth, drawing a moan from the woman underneath her.

"I want to make you feel good." Ava breathed watching Bea's pupils dilate.
"Okay?"

Ava wanted to ensure that Bea was up for this, she would completely understand if the sister warrior just wanted to be held.

"Yes."

That was all Ava needed to dive right back in, giving her a bruising kiss before dragging her lips down her neck. The Halo bearer swung a leg over Bea, so she was straddling her, releasing a shaky sigh against the sister warrior’s skin when she felt Bea's hands come to rest on her thighs.

Ava continued her way down Bea’s neck before finding a spot that made the other woman grip her tightly.

Ooooh interesting.

The Halo bearer lingered on the spot, kissing it softly before biting down. Bea's body tensed underneath her, and she stifled a moan.

"Don't hold back Bea, I want to hear you." Ava murmured into her neck, soothing the bite with her tongue.

Bea whimpered; Ava felt a primal need flood her veins. She needed to hear that again, she needed to be the reason for that noise. The Halo bearer brought her hands up to the partially unbuttoned shirt, pausing to catch Bea's eye. The other woman was breathing harshly but gave her a nod.

Ava grinned, trying not to do what Bea called her excited wiggle. The Halo bearer had been mortified the first time Bea had called it that back in Switzerland. They had been given tickets to the local carnival by Hans and Bea had been less than enthused about going. When Ava had finally convinced her, she had been ecstatic bouncing on her heels unable to stand still. Bea had burst out laughing and at Ava's confused expression, the sister warrior had explained how hilarious the Halo bearer's excited wiggle was.

Grinning fondly at the memory she felt the anticipation building, Ava popped each button slowly and steadily.

Why is my mouth watering?

Breathing through her nose, Ava carefully pulled Bea's shirt apart, her mouth dropping open as she surveyed the sister warrior's torso. Bea was jacked, years of training and discipline had hardened and toned her body. But her chest, her chest…

Wow…

Full breasts strained against a plain grey bra, Bea's skin was sun-kissed, freckles sprinkled across her chest. Ava glanced up to see Bea looking back at her a little embarrassed, the Halo bearer bit her lip shaking her head slightly.

"Wow Bea. Just wow." Ava leaned in and pressed a kiss to the corner of her mouth.
"You're gorgeous."

Bea smiled just a little. Ava grinned back delighted before lowering her head to worship the new skin on display. Pressing her mouth to kiss, suck, lick and bite all over her chest feeling Bea squirm underneath her. Ava needed more, leaning forward, she breathed a hot breath into Bea's ear.

"Can I…take it off?"

Bea didn't answer for a long moment, long enough that Ava thought she had overstepped.

"I trust you." The sister warrior finally uttered.

Ava gave her a searing kiss as a reply before easing her hands under Bea's back to undo the clasp.
Hearing the click of the clasp, made both women freeze, this was uncharted territory for them. Ava swallowed thickly, mentally preparing herself. She rejoined their lips, trying to reassure Bea as she slid the straps of the bra down, freeing the other woman's breasts. Ava flung the bra somewhere behind her as she kissed the sister warrior deeply.

Eventually she sat up again, keeping her eyes on Bea's, gauging how comfortable the other woman was. Bea looked nervous, really nervous. Ava tried to shoot her a comforting smile.

"We don't have to do this if you don't want to." She said softly.

Bea let out a little huff, grabbing Ava's hands and placing them onto her chest. The Halo bearer gasped as she felt the soft skin under her hands, not quite believing what was happening right now. Ava finally looked down, her breath catching in her throat at the sight of Bea's now bare chest.

Holy shit. I think I’m a boob girl.

They were perfect, heaving with each of the sister warrior’s breaths. Ava’s eyes were drawn to the light brown nipples standing at attention between her index and middle fingers. The Halo bearer flexed her hands carefully, hearing Bea gasp.

Ava grinned and went to work palming the sister warrior’s chest, listening to the sounds Bea was making to help guide her hands. When she rolled a stiff nipple between her thumb and index finger, the sister warrior gripped her thighs tightly, sinking her nails into Ava’s skin.

“Ava, please don’t stop.”

Delighted with herself, Ava mirrored the movement on the other nipple, watching Bea throw her head back into the pillow with a moan. Having an idea, Ava lowered her head and captured one of the nipples in her mouth, Bea cried out, her hips bucking underneath Ava. The Halo bearer adjusted her position so she could reach down with her right hand to touch Bea where she needed it most. Stilling at the fly of her jeans, Ava looked up into the sister warrior’s eyes.

Bea’s mouth hung open, her eyes glazed, she gave Ava a small nod. The Halo bearer quickly undid her fly and thrust a hand down cupping Bea gently, giving her something to move against, her mouth going dry at the feeling of dampness through the thin cotton of her underwear. Ava went back to her ministrations on Bea’s breasts, smiling into the warm skin as she felt the sister warrior’s hips move, grinding into Ava’s hand.

It didn't take long for Bea to come undone; she pulled Ava up to kiss her just before she orgasmed, moaning into the Halo bearer’s mouth. Ava peppered kisses across Bea’s face while she recovered, carefully removing her hand from her jeans and lying beside her.

“Wow.” Bea panted.

“Wow yourself.” Ava replied, stroking her fingers across Bea’s bare torso.

Bea’s alarm shattered their quiet moment. Ava groaned, Bea chuckled, sitting up to get ready for the day.

“Come on Ava, we have training to do. Especially now you don’t have the halo to protect you.”

Ava just groaned louder, burying her head under the pillows.