Look for the light. || Carl grimes

Chapter 19:forever

It's been a few days since miles death I've stayed hoarded up in my room not having no motivation for anything Salem mostly staying out with Maggie or Glenn or anyone else me and Carl have talked but it just would result into a agrument I've felt like he doesn't love me much or doesn't wanna be with me I finally got up today I just put on some Jean shorts and a baggy black long sleeve and I went outside I spotted Carl and Enid and yet again I was jealous carl spotted me staring so I turned away I planned on going outside and I grabbed a gun and a knife and then I basically stomped past Carl and Enid not daring to say a word to either I heard Enid say something to Carl about me I didn't care I just walked away and I got to the wall before I heard Carl say "Sydney what are you doing?" He spoke he never used my name not even in agruments "I'm going on a walk is what I'm doing" I said back "your not in the right mindset to go out there" he said "excuse me?." I said turning around "you not in the right mindset Sydney." He said

Who does he think he is!??

I thought "you don't even love me Carl why do you care!." I kind of whisper yelled "what?." His face softened "you don't love me anymore Carl always getting into agruments and now ditching me almost twenty four seven." I said "Sydney what do you mean? I do love you still I'm sorry if I don't show it but I'll always love you forever." He said my tears basically welled with eyes what was I thinking ? Of course he loves me? He slowly walked over to me and slowly put his hands on my waist and I just buried my head into his chest "your fine syd your okay just calm down" he spoke softly like a blessing to my ears "I love you syd" he said "I love you to Carl.." my voice broke mid thru my sentence cause I was crying ..

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I was tired from crying I took a nap mid thru the day I woke up to carls arm wrapped around my waist I slowly moved it off and sat up I started to stand up and I suddenly felt a hand wrap around my waist again and pull me back "don't go" He spoke "carl I have to go shower we have a run today I got to get ready" I said looking back he was looking at me with heart eyes and he let out a sigh "fineee." He sat up and we both got up .

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We talked out the house Glenn took Salem with him so I didn't have Salem I basically haven't seen her almost all day "we waited on y'all your late." Rick spoke "yeah yeah you'll live cowboy" I said Carl let out a small laugh behind me earning a warning look from rick he quickly ended his laughing "I need a gun" I said Rick tossed me a gun "that could've hit me" I said we finally then head out I was sitting in the backseat with Carl and Rosita Daryl and rick in the front finally we came across a little gas station rick pulls off into the area and we all get out I put my gun up and walk around I hear a noise from inside I hit on the window not hearing anything I walked in Carl Rick Daryl and Rosita looking at other things outside I walked in and found a guy on the floor he was holding a knife wound on his stomach "shit are you okay?" I said "does it look like it!?" He said "okay fair enough what's your name?." I said grabbing medical supplies out of my bag "rory" he said "what's your name?" He questioned "Lizzie." I lied not telling him my real name I pulled his shirt up getting on the ground with him

I got finished with his wound before hearing carls voice "syd?? Where are you?" He sounded worried motherfucker used my nickname now he knows I'm lying "in here!" I said as I finished putting the bandage on him "what the are you crazy??" He said "yes Carl I am glad you finally noticed." I said "you lied?." Rory said "I'm not gonna tell you my real name dumbass I'm not stupid." He said "okay syd-" he said I cut him off "it's Sydney to you." I said "why?" He asked "Cause i don't know you? Only he's allowed to use my nickname." I said "y'all dating or something" he said "yes Fuck face." I said he stood up with me as I put my gun in his holster Carl did to i walked away "we got a new friend!" I said "name?" Rick said back to me turning around as I walked out "Rory." I said "you ask him the questions?" Rick said "officer friendly what do you think?." I said "don't call me that and no?." He said "yes it's a no!" He said then asked him the question he answered them okay so he got into the car with us

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We got back the sun was setting "I'm going inside and going to sleep I'll see y'all in the morning." I said as I threw the gun back to Rick and I walked back to my house I opened the door spotting Salem in there "hi sal" I said as I walked to the bathroom showering and then brushing my teeth putting a towel around me I walked into my room seeing Salem asleep Maggie and Glenn not in here I put on some black shorts and a baggy white shirt and got into bed turning the lights off before and I soon fell asleep.

I'm kinda okay with this chapter I guess I had this chapter saved as a draft for so long I finally finished next chapter will be the last:(( but I'll be making another book I guess but idk who about i think maybe Tara? Idk 😭😭

( end of chapter 19 )